Juniper galloped away from the arena as fast as she could, chest burning as she desperately tried to find a place to hide, darting to and fro in frantic bursts of speed before darting between two rocks holding each other up. She curled up there and buried her nose in her tail, shivering like a leaf.
She should have guessed the name 'Deathmatch' wouldn't mean anything good, but she'd never have guessed her father would be one of the ones in the ring. Of course she would cheer... but her father was pitted up against a child. Which meant he was going to kill a child.
But she loved him! But he'd fought a child.
The conflict was world-breaking for her. She'd maintained the utmost innocence until now, but now she didn't know what was what. Was her dad right? Was her naive moral compass right?
She didn't know.
@Vicktor
Juniper peeked out from her hiding place and looked upon her father with wide eyes, her belly low to the floor and tail tucked between her legs. She crawled out from beneath the rocks and whined, head low to the ground as she trained her watery eyes upon him.
"D-dad?", she said, horror dawning as she smelled blood and saw his wounds.
Immediately she stumbled forward, eyes watery with unshed tears, crying, "You're hurt!"
"This was an awful idea... this was a BAD idea!!", she barked at him, "Y-you bit him! The pig- what if it wasn't a child, would you have still hurt them? That's bad, dad! You can't just hurt people for fun!!"
She was hysterical, half crying and half growling between licks as she tried to lick his wounds clean. It was better than just leaving them to fester, anyway.
"Wh-why did you let me come? Do you know how many were there to just hurt and kill or watch for entertainment? All of them!!", she said, "What if they turned on us? What if they hurt us?!"
Juniper was shaking, her breath coming in short pants as she very suddenly sat down, unable to bear her own weight all of a sudden. It was just too much, everything setting in at once and turning her legs to jelly and filling her ears with cotton.
@Vicktor
Despite everything, she trusted him. Even as she trembled she leaned towards him, pushing her head into his chest to hide her face, the notion of 'if I can't see it, it doesn't exist' a strong one in her mind. If she couldn't see anything but Vicktor, then she didn't need to worry about it right now. He'd explain everything.
"I'm breathing," she sniffled, swallowing hard and shifting so she wasn't sitting on her tail, the appendage still tucked firmly up against her stomach.
Porkchop wasn't dead, which was good, but what was the lesson, here?
"I don't understand," she said hoarsely, "Why would people think killing's fun? I don't find it very fun to kill rabbits even though I have to eat."
That's honestly what she assumed. People were going to kill various lessers for sport or something. Maybe a big deer would be released, or a huge monster lesser she'd yet to encounter, but then they'd been pitted against each other instead. She assumed that death was limited to lessers and was a concept beyond those like her and Vicktor, or greater gembound.
"I don't want you to die," she said suddenly, tearing up again as she pressed into him, "Please don't die."
What happened after death? Would Vicktor just lay there, lifeless, forever? If someone didn't eat him, would he just remain where he'd fallen and breathed his last breath for all time? Where he'd lay without a smile on his face ever again, or soft-spoken words of encouragement leaving his mouth, his body stiff and unmoving.
She couldn't lose Vicktor.
@Vicktor
So... they could die. That was awful to learn but she felt stupid for assuming that death just wasn't a possibility. She felt weak all of a sudden, her heart pounding as she pushed herself under Vicktor's raised arm to curl against his soft belly fur, scared.
"... But then why would anyone want to hurt anyone else?", she asked, "That's so horrible!! To fight to kill just because i-it's fun?! For entertainment?!"
Juniper was horrified. Maybe fighting could be fun (she didn't think so), but straight up killing each other? She felt faint at the idea of gembounds cheering and egging on fighters to see murder.
"... I wanna go home," she sniffed, still shaky. "I-I don't feel safe."
Not when they were so close to those monsters. She still remembered that big purple one with all those teeth and claws. He looked like he should be one of the ones fighting, but he stood beside Nemean as an equal, his cries the loudest as he called for bloodshed. And there were others. More monsters, more gembounds who wanted death and bloodshed.
Juniper shivered and pressed in closer, eyes clenched shut and sore.
@Vicktor
"So... instead of everyone being violent all the time, it's just this small event?", she said softly, looking up at Vicktor with her big, sad eyes.
That was... better. In a horrible, sick way.
"At least you can choose if you want to risk your life or just fight," she said, thought she was clearly still unhappy, and she swiftly looked up at Vicktor with sudden realization, "Y-you'd tell them to stop before they went too far, right? You wouldn't... you wouldn't kill? O-or die?"
Juniper stared for a moment more, then she looked down, ears drooping.
"... Why are you participating? Are you... are you one of the violent ones?", she asked, her voice impossibly soft.
She didn't look angry, or even disappointed. Just... sad. Sad and confused.
"I'm sorry," she said suddenly, shifting from paw to paw, averting her eyes as she sniffled again, "I'm sorry. I-I'm probably being a baby a-and making you feel bad. I'm sorry."
Juniper couldn't help but wonder if she was the bad guy here, if she was asking all the wrong questions or if she was just wrong. Was she just making Vicktor feel bad?
@Vicktor