Jun 07 2022, 01:03 AM
He had wondered if he should build a case or a party first. Would anything make this more appealing to
Khavur was certainly afraid of one thing. An ongoing melody it could not escape, looping again and again in its mind, the flutter of bird and butterfly wings. The chorus, his train, awaiting his next song, his next muse, his next move. What Khavur had not yet figured out was what it meant to be an artist. He only knew desperation for expression and understanding. He was only just learning of a crowd that was anxious rather than adoring; he was only just learning of the experiences of freedom, power, responsibility, and liberation. All this and so few souls to share it with, or take it from. So few.
He stared at the piano. Had they come here, unbeknownst to him, he who listened and watched the brilliant storm of his mind for the hint of any other sound breaking through the swirling dust? Had they come in secret, and had they played until their hands melted into the keys? And if Khavur lifted his clumsy, beastly claws to play the same notes as the tremoring loop in his mind yet again, like an allure, an addiction, if he came back again and again, could he hold their hands in his own again? Would he someday reach somebody outside?
Perhaps power would become his own driving force someday, like it was his Master's. If he could attain it to the point of sating every fleeting whim, from his strongest to his faintest, it was almost certain to devour him too. Everything existed within the scope of power: liberation, of himself and his family, of his dearest friend. If he could rip them from the chrysalis or wherever they now hid, place them at his side and beg them to stay, or to not even need begging; would that ability "to be able to" not define him just the same? Well, he supposed it would not have to. All is within the scope of power, including the power to refuse definition. Now that sounded...
I'll tell you how it sounds. It sounds like the same refrain from before, cut off at the ends and the edges and folded back in on itself, then expanded to fill a room. It sounds like a path with no direction. It sounds like a spiral of ants whirling around on a broken record. It sounds like Khavur carefully, gently hammering away at the same keys, the same notes, the same pieces of his big stupid puzzle, comprising a soliloquy to mourn the pieces he yet lacks and the pieces he
Directionless thought. Definition definition. Plan. Loop. Meandering whimsy. Devious note. Definition definition. Split and cauterize. Plan. Loop. He can almost feel the tension in fingers that are not his own. He doesn't want to. Plan. Loop. Plan.
@Aethril