Aug 27 2015, 10:40 PM
Booker wandered the familiar, warm earth of Eridanus, sunlight trailing over spore-filled fur - but it didn't comfort him like it used to. The itch and pull of the scarred-over burns, the useless leg that trailed after him like a badge of failure... it made him shy away from the dapples of bright, turning and wobbling into the shade of the undergrowth. This, this world of darkness and fungal growth, of decay, this was where he felt safe, welcomed. It was why he'd loved Polaris: he could hide away any time, use any of the hundreds of tiny holes in the walls to escape, to get away, to try and forget just how weak he was, at the end of the day. Doubt had begun to creep in over the past few days, as his lame leg made him incapable of travelling out to the carved tunnels, to begin his work as the Mother's scribe. The numbat had never been one for introspection. Life moved on, and it hurt him - that was just his lot. It didn't matter, though; whenever he was hurt, it was to protect someone else, or to lead him to his next step. And he'd certainly never been one to care for his own looks, nor his scars, or any other impairment this course had inflicted upon him. No, what bothered Booker was the absolute obviousness of his failure. He hadn't been able to help Baratheon, and he hadn't been able to protect himself, either... letting out a disgusted sigh, the tiny Gembound's ears flicked back, trudging onwards, heading for the crystal clear pools of Eridanus. Perhaps some fresh water would clear his mind of this poisonous guilt - though he rather doubted it. Trembling even from the short walk, Booker sat by the edge of the Eyes, lapping at the water for a moment, watching the ripples distort his reflection. His monocle was gone, presumably somewhere back in the impromptu camp he'd set up for Diot before the fight. His fur was matted and musty with sweat and fungus, the gem spires spiking out of his left eye socket flashing in the light, a reminder of that little gift as well. The scribe's lame leg was shrivelled and almost bare of fur, and a stripe of burn scars ran from the tip of his tail up to the small of his back. Overall, he looked like... a survivor. But he'd only survived at the cost of others, of those he'd sworn to protect, of his friends, and, full of this roiling fear, Booker dashed at the reflection with a free paw, huffing, focusing inwards to try and shield Baratheon from the negative emotions that clouded his mind like the fog and the flame. |