Sep 02 2015, 04:02 PM
He was not relieved of the pain. He could not run. He could not walk without wanting to cry from the agony that shot down his spine and down into his back legs. He did not want to hurt anymore. Once or twice, he had considered asking Kerberos to simply take the pain away. To die. If anyone were to kill him, he'd rather it be Kerb, but he didn't want him to feel guilt.
Bones himself couldn't imagine what it'd be like if Giggle or Kerb asked him to kill them, and so he did not ask. He was sure the pain would end at some point. Not today, not tomorrow, maybe not even the next cycle, but some day.
He comforted himself for the last few days with these words running through his mind. From lying in the den like a limp ragdoll to walking around he recited these words in his head. 'You'll get better. You'll get better,' yet he felt like he was not getting better. 'Not today. Maybe tomorrow.'
He stared at a dead rat his mother had left for him. He appreciated what she did and how she tried to help him, he could tell she was worried. The restraint in her voice when he came back to Canis-- he didn't notice it at the time but thinking back on it, it almost tore his heart out. He didn't want her to worry. Perhaps he shouldn't have tried to be a hero for a stranger, no matter how young that stranger was.
Bones pushed these thoughts out of his mind as he carefully picked up the rat and struggled to all fours, heading out of the den. Carefully, he limped towards a blank wall and dropped the rat. He hadn't painted in a long time now. He was too busy exploring to take the time to sit down and draw for a while.
The dog stared at the wall for what seemed like hours, until he leaned over to the rat and tore it open. Guts, blood and the contents of the rat's belly poured out and Bones simply placed his paws in the gore, placing them carefully against the wall as he began to drag them down slowly.
It would be hard. He had no support from his back legs to paint, but he was sure he could do it for a while.