"Is anyone there?
Oh-
Hi!"
It had all been there. From the moment Fallah slumped down on the cave wall until the larimar chrysalis formed, she was aware. She had been in a state of shock, but before the darkness set in, Fallah saw it all. The dragon had nearly made a meal of her when Fisher and Black appeared. Her heart jumped, though the lynx had been unable to move. She wanted to run to them, to embrace them, but at the same time, they needed to run. Fallah watched the fighting dance in and out of her unfocused vision. They were going to die. they were going to die because of her!
In and out of consciousness, the fight passed by. An unsettling coolness began to creep under Fallah's fur. She was moving? How? The lynx smelled Black and blood, though, through clouded eyes, Fisher continued fighting. He couldn't fight the dragon by himself! Why was Black carrying her away! Surely she could be of some help. Fallah's vision blurred more, though, through the numbness, she couldn't feel if she was crying or not.
"Who survived? Somebody new? Anyone else but you?"
They had escaped, somehow. Everyone was hurt, but Fallah couldn't help. She couldn't move, she couldn't feel any more. The feline wanted to apologize for putting them in the way of danger, but her breaths came in too shallow to make words. Fallah didn't think her eyes were closed, but, slowly, the blurred vision began to turn dark. She was scared. Her heartbeat that drummed in her ears grew slower and slower. She didn't know what death really was, but she didn't think she was ready for it. Would she see Fisher again? Black?
Fallah couldn't prophesize that she would ever awaken again. The lynx didn't even fully feel the chrysalis form around her. She heard the panicked murmurs of her friends and then... sadness. The saddest sounds. She heard them and knew they were her friends. Her maw opened with the last of her strength, her lower jaw glowing, but no sound escaped. She took a breath in, then nothing. Her consciousness was gone. Her awareness was gone. Her magic glow, now dull. All feeling and thought became null. The magic was in control, working rapidly to fix the damage that had been done.
The lynx had no concept of time, but some time had passed before the gembound would even shift in its cocoon. After that time, though there was no real thought, Fallah's body would respond to sounds, flinching if something were too sudden or too loud. Some time later, it would react to warmth. Thoughts came later still, and even at first as only feeling. That warmth, those familiar voices. They were comfort. The cat did not know who the voices belonged to, but they were familiar and comfort and the gembound reacted to them, drawing near to their warmth.
Slowly, slowly, after the concept of time was conceived once again and even slower still, the thoughts began to develop. From the beginning, her memories came back. Memories as ancient seeming as the cave; the lizard at the hatching, the foggy Cetus, Fisher, oh, Fisher! It came back; the deer and the story of the shadow and the king, the flowing water that wouldn't stop, springing off Black's back, the strong, guardian Black. The large fish, Eridanus, the cow Sadie, all of them came back to her. Everything fell into place, up until the last moment before her... her chrystalis! Fallah's heart beat hard, sounding extra loud in the larimar walls. She knew who she was and how she got here. She wasn't dead at all!
Her name was Fallah Hallaf, and she was very much alive.
"And though I know, since you've awakened her again
She depends on you, she depends on you
She'll go alone, and never speak of this again
We depend on you, we depend
I'll depend on you."
"speak"