Nov 27 2015, 08:18 PM
Often, time rarely granted him an hour that he could fill with pleasant thoughts. There was no husk anymore, he had filled out but still he felt empty inside. What good did it make to wander the caves as an autonomous machine? When the walls only stretched so far and the encounters were limited to a set few gembounds who had been granted the right to be birthed. Louie's left side brushed gently against the wall, he didn't feel like getting lost or hitting something that his right eye had missed. Back in Monoceros, there were two gembounds infused with his own spirit, one in the matter of rock and the other in a matter of his Will. Leaving them alone for extended periods of time was commonplace, Magdalena seemed to understand that and during his absence she watched fondly over both, despite her connection to one.
The segment of smooth wall fell away into the ridges and bumps of the carvings. Lifting his head, he tried to make out what he could out of the corner of his eye but was forced to step back a few paces to absorb the whole thing with his impaired vision. To say there was any sense in this madness would be... Crazy. Scribbles and etchings of words from a forgotten language and pictures that he couldn't make heads or tails of. Inhaling the musty stench of dust and dirt that had found its way to perch on the edges of the sills, he wrinkled his nose and place his paw pad on the wall. Running it down, the ridges and bumps sent pleasant shivers up his spine. "What secrets are you holding?" It was breathed silently, as he made to step back once again sitting down.
Did this hold everything that would give his life meaning? That he would feel as though he was no longer required to murder others to give himself a sense of purpose? Anyone who crossed his path, was likely to either end up dead or corrupt. Whether that was his intent in the beginning, it had become his intent now. The fox had accepted his role in Origin Cave. No one had respect for him, no one could be called his friend. Merry Men were already as angry as they had ever been at him, he could understand it despite the reason being petty. Perhaps the world was just better off without him here. Take a step back and end it all for the good of others who he held no feelings for.
End the cycle of derailing trains wherever he went. Let them implode by themselves when they all came to understand that life had no purpose. Perhaps birthing children would make him seem different, and that was probably the only tie he still felt to this world. Ending it now, would be selfish to them. So he withheld from doing so. For the sake of the kids.
The segment of smooth wall fell away into the ridges and bumps of the carvings. Lifting his head, he tried to make out what he could out of the corner of his eye but was forced to step back a few paces to absorb the whole thing with his impaired vision. To say there was any sense in this madness would be... Crazy. Scribbles and etchings of words from a forgotten language and pictures that he couldn't make heads or tails of. Inhaling the musty stench of dust and dirt that had found its way to perch on the edges of the sills, he wrinkled his nose and place his paw pad on the wall. Running it down, the ridges and bumps sent pleasant shivers up his spine. "What secrets are you holding?" It was breathed silently, as he made to step back once again sitting down.
Did this hold everything that would give his life meaning? That he would feel as though he was no longer required to murder others to give himself a sense of purpose? Anyone who crossed his path, was likely to either end up dead or corrupt. Whether that was his intent in the beginning, it had become his intent now. The fox had accepted his role in Origin Cave. No one had respect for him, no one could be called his friend. Merry Men were already as angry as they had ever been at him, he could understand it despite the reason being petty. Perhaps the world was just better off without him here. Take a step back and end it all for the good of others who he held no feelings for.
End the cycle of derailing trains wherever he went. Let them implode by themselves when they all came to understand that life had no purpose. Perhaps birthing children would make him seem different, and that was probably the only tie he still felt to this world. Ending it now, would be selfish to them. So he withheld from doing so. For the sake of the kids.