Dec 21 2015, 08:25 PM
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Booker hummed, back against the trunk of one of Eridanus' many trees, shaded by its leaves. His paws were a mess of scars, but they were beautiful, in a way - at least to him. Thick cords of pale tissue cut through the pads, twisted up and under his wrists, coiled into ornate swirls near his elbows. Fire, embedded in skin with artistic sweeps, the ever-present itch of anger ready to burst from within, score new marks on top of old. An ever-growing canvas. He supposed, in the back of his mind, that it was only beautiful because it was by choice. The hole in his leg, filled by stringy muscle and broken shards of bone, covered over by stretched-thin skin and thatches of mushrooms, was anything but pretty. It was ugly, an itching, painful reminder of failure, one that Barnett snarled at, that made him pace at their side of the bond, fists aching to tear it in two. There was a second puncture, overlapping the first, but it was shallow and pink. Vicktor. He didn't mind it as much. It was a lesson, more than a reminder. Eventually, everyone went sour - all of them, all of them had the potential to be so brutally powerful. It confused him why they all didn't just... take it. Grab at the chance to devour, destroy. Why some jumped at the opportunity, and why some defended themselves with remembrances of their own suffering, as if it made what they did right. Made to destroy all of the caves. Seems so... fake, now. All these excuses. But he was growing maudlin in his boredom, Booker supposed, ears flicking up at a distant shout. It came closer, clearer, peaked over the nigh constant buzz in his ears, so long ago dented from his brother's roar. "Over here, kiddo!" The scribe rose to all fours, shaking off the dirt clinging to his limbs, and trotted towards the call. |
The snow reached up to his haunches, mauled paws disappearing under pristine white with every step, and for a moment Booker allowed himself to relax, drop the ever-present anxiety-fueled guard that cloaked him so fully. It was a choking, smothering thing, leaking down his throat and settling in his lungs, and to shed it mirrored the first hit of one of his son's concoctions - a full-body change. The world swam, for a moment, before the numbat corrected himself, stopped listening to one side, grinned as Diot ran up to him, rattling off immediately. He looked... smaller. Younger. Almost ethereal. Whatever the scribe had taken must have melded with the hallucinations that shadowed him, made Diot's image revert to old memories. Or, at least, that's what Booker could depend on, so as to bat back the tendrils of the panic attack building behind his eyes. "Aw, well, thank ya, son. I must not've heard ya earlier," he murmured, brow furrowing. He hadn't been asleep, so how could...? Well. It could be chalked up to the ringing in his ears. No need to worry. With a tiny smile, he sat back on his haunches, reaching out to take the offered meal... and felt nothing. His fingers seemed to waver through it. Eye widening, the numbat's hackles seemed to raise in an instant, jolting to his feet and grimacing. "Diot, drop that right now. I don't know where you got it from, but it's bad news," Barnett snapped out, moving closer to the tamarin, enough to make a grab for his wrist to shake the insect from his grip. For a moment, there was a flicker. And then his hand closed on empty air. A choked whine of confusion crept from Barnett's throat, and his arm dropped, staring shakily at Diot's form. "What..?" |
Barnett's eye twitched at the flinch, unconsciously taking a step back. The words dripped from Diot's lips like oil, thick and shimmery, slippery in his ears, the buzzing only growing. "I'm not - no, I'm not making things up," the scribe defended, scruff rising, the flames swirling in the core of his mind flaring in defensive confusion. "I-I don't talk to myself!" The words sounded weak, shriveled, even to his own ears. But what followed the boy's grimace hit him like a punch in the gut, a phantom pain that crept through his skin and dug into meat, rose acid into the back of his throat. "No. No, you are not dead, you can't be, w-what..." A shaky hand rose to rub at his good eye, and Barnett hissed, focused on the bond at the back of his mind. It was glowing, soft, and he almost relaxed. Until it began to crumble. "No! You're not dead, you're right here, I can fucking see you!" Panic seeped into his tone, teeth biting at the end of every word. His breath came in short pants, but even that came to a strangled halt when Diot reached out, hand seeming to melt through the numbat's chest, phase right back out. "No, that... that can't be right..." Memories tickled at his vision, waited for him to flinch back again before they flooded his focus. Pain, radiating from the bond, a break as far from clean as one could get. Baratheon, dying, never getting a chance to say goodbye before the warm chain shattered. The pathway in his mind gave an eerily similar creaking groan, twisting in on itself, collapsing, shuddering with every new blow. He remembered it. And oh, he remembered honing in on Diot, on the way his blood pulsed through his veins, how it traveled to his heart - and Mother, maybe that was when... that had to be it. He could imagine it, even if the memory was blocked. Could feel his hands clench into fists, strangle the pump until it stood still, until the life drained from his own son, until he released the spell, until the corpse fell to the ground and he grinned, victorious, high on the power. Instead of a piece of grassy shell laid at the base of a stone in offering, there was a hole, and then a mound, but it didn't keep in the scent of rot, no, that lingered like a mark. He could almost feel the blood on his hands now, tacky and slick at once, copper in his mouth. "I... no. I didn't. I'm not a monster!" It came out a shriek, feral, like the growl of a caged-in dog. But it was all so clear, now, and the off-kilter nature of it all made him wince, stumble back further, away from the thing because it was not his son could not be his son. Everything he'd done, everyone he'd met. It was all too perfect. Baratheon, hidden out somehow for months, without them ever crossing paths, healthy and alive. Bones, forgiving him so completely for being bonded to a murderer. Louie. God, Louie. How could he have believed that? Was he really so far gone that he'd imagined his kidnapper falling in love with him? This was all so, so fucked. "Prove it. Prove that any of what you're saying is real." It came out as more of a plea than a command. |
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