Dec 31 2015, 04:17 AM
all welcome!
Bartos had been trying to get out more often ever since Bevy died. He hadn't been as close to her as the rest of the Gembounds in Maji Walezi, but he still thought about her. The way she had smiled with her eyes, she seemed like she was always so ready to help, so kind and happy. So ready to take him in and nurse him back to health. She did everything she could for his leg, but it was twisted and broken for good. Even if the bone did heal, it wouldn't heal back in place like it had been before. It didn't matter, he was just grateful for the help. And now she was gone, and he felt like he owed it to her - her memory, her honor, or something like that - to be just as helpful.
He was still new in Maji Walezi, but he was getting the hang of the whole group dynamic. He learned what his role was - as a Coordinator, he was tasked with communicating with the group and the Gembounds that passed through the cave. It was a strange job considering Bartos hadn't any prior experience with really talking to others. He mostly just shrugged them off in favor of his studies, or led awkward conversations, with the exception of Clover, with whom conversations just seemed natural. And he thought about her when he tried to speak to others, tried to be as warm and open, but with Bevy's unexpected death, it was hard to get anybody in Maji Walezi to really open up. He tried, though.
At the end of the day, Bartos had limped back to the den he called his. There, the two citrine chrysali had grown into the wall, side by side. They were siblings, he'd decided. He watched them and tracked their progress, keeping notes on which crystals expanded and by how much. They were still there, gleaming in the diffused light that somehow wormed its way into the den despite the penumbra of its low roof. His muscles ached and his bum leg was on fire, the joints that tried to refuse almost constantly bending and shifting, making it difficult to really recover. He reclined onto his stomach before the twin chrysali, admiring them, every so often catching his reflection in one of their facets and averting his gaze. He wondered, and he remembered; and he wondered if they remembered too.
The cat closed his eyes. He moved towards them, inching along the ground until he sat with his head gently nestled in the crook that opened up between them. The memory began to flash back like a flickering, old movie reel, lights and sounds slowly filling in the empty space in his mind and the void that he had opened up for her. He knew the memory by now; much as he tried not to, he visited it often. Her gentle smile, the life and love that comprised her. The way that they had become one. This was the moment the two citrine shards had cleaved from her precious stone, and she laughed, and he purred, and they were never apart.
As the memory played, he reached out for her. In some way, he hoped that he reached out to her like in the memory, and he hoped that he could experience that feeling again. But the connection felt hollow. As he listened to her voice and felt her everything in time with his, he quietly spoke to her, a silent message meant only for her.
Clover, can you hear me?
A lot's happened since you've been gone. Leon told me about the last time he saw you. He was all burnt from fighting Hasira. He didn't get a chance to explain what happened, and you looked scared. He told me though. He said he was trying to protect the lion. The white lion, whoever he is. He's the new leader of Maji Walezi, too. They hold a meeting every four cycles to vote on who should lead them. ...But a terrible thing happened at the meeting, Clover.
You know Bevy? She ordained Leon and Makyna's wedding, the little bird with the kind voice. Do you remember her? ...She died a few days ago. Kerberos attacked her. She didn't make it... and now the owl, Dark, he's gone too. We had a funeral for her. Leon buried her beneath the rocks in her den and I made a memorial. It was... terrible, Clover. She was their friend. They'd all known her for so long, and then suddenly one day, she's just... gone.
I hope that never happens to you. I know you're out there, somewhere. You aren't gone. But you might be... some day... and I'm afraid of that.
You have a reason to come back, you know that? Those two shards of citrine you left behind, they're growing. Makyna told me they have life within them. It's strange to think... but I've warmed up to the idea. I've been talking to them every day, telling them stories, like you do. My stories aren't as good. I tell them all about you, hoping that when they emerge, they'll know who you are. I wonder if they'll love stories as much as you.
I want you to come back, Clover. I miss you. You know, I didn't really have anyone before. In Orion, everybody I made friends with eventually went away. Except for you. You kept coming back. Suddenly you were everything to me, and then just as quickly, he took you away. ...It hurts... Sometimes it feels like you're gone, like Bevy. But I know you aren't. It's still you out there, even if you're dark. Please... come back. Even if you're dark. I just want you back.
The memory began to flicker out, leaving Bartos in darkness. His brows knitted together, staving off the overwhelming sadness that had settled in its place. He remained close to the chrysali, as though warmth had seeped from them, but he knew that it was his own body heat leeching into their surface. He could make believe that it belonged to someone else, and hoped that no one else would find him there. Maybe, if he was lucky, he would sink into the shadows too.
Bartos had been trying to get out more often ever since Bevy died. He hadn't been as close to her as the rest of the Gembounds in Maji Walezi, but he still thought about her. The way she had smiled with her eyes, she seemed like she was always so ready to help, so kind and happy. So ready to take him in and nurse him back to health. She did everything she could for his leg, but it was twisted and broken for good. Even if the bone did heal, it wouldn't heal back in place like it had been before. It didn't matter, he was just grateful for the help. And now she was gone, and he felt like he owed it to her - her memory, her honor, or something like that - to be just as helpful.
He was still new in Maji Walezi, but he was getting the hang of the whole group dynamic. He learned what his role was - as a Coordinator, he was tasked with communicating with the group and the Gembounds that passed through the cave. It was a strange job considering Bartos hadn't any prior experience with really talking to others. He mostly just shrugged them off in favor of his studies, or led awkward conversations, with the exception of Clover, with whom conversations just seemed natural. And he thought about her when he tried to speak to others, tried to be as warm and open, but with Bevy's unexpected death, it was hard to get anybody in Maji Walezi to really open up. He tried, though.
At the end of the day, Bartos had limped back to the den he called his. There, the two citrine chrysali had grown into the wall, side by side. They were siblings, he'd decided. He watched them and tracked their progress, keeping notes on which crystals expanded and by how much. They were still there, gleaming in the diffused light that somehow wormed its way into the den despite the penumbra of its low roof. His muscles ached and his bum leg was on fire, the joints that tried to refuse almost constantly bending and shifting, making it difficult to really recover. He reclined onto his stomach before the twin chrysali, admiring them, every so often catching his reflection in one of their facets and averting his gaze. He wondered, and he remembered; and he wondered if they remembered too.
The cat closed his eyes. He moved towards them, inching along the ground until he sat with his head gently nestled in the crook that opened up between them. The memory began to flash back like a flickering, old movie reel, lights and sounds slowly filling in the empty space in his mind and the void that he had opened up for her. He knew the memory by now; much as he tried not to, he visited it often. Her gentle smile, the life and love that comprised her. The way that they had become one. This was the moment the two citrine shards had cleaved from her precious stone, and she laughed, and he purred, and they were never apart.
As the memory played, he reached out for her. In some way, he hoped that he reached out to her like in the memory, and he hoped that he could experience that feeling again. But the connection felt hollow. As he listened to her voice and felt her everything in time with his, he quietly spoke to her, a silent message meant only for her.
Clover, can you hear me?
A lot's happened since you've been gone. Leon told me about the last time he saw you. He was all burnt from fighting Hasira. He didn't get a chance to explain what happened, and you looked scared. He told me though. He said he was trying to protect the lion. The white lion, whoever he is. He's the new leader of Maji Walezi, too. They hold a meeting every four cycles to vote on who should lead them. ...But a terrible thing happened at the meeting, Clover.
You know Bevy? She ordained Leon and Makyna's wedding, the little bird with the kind voice. Do you remember her? ...She died a few days ago. Kerberos attacked her. She didn't make it... and now the owl, Dark, he's gone too. We had a funeral for her. Leon buried her beneath the rocks in her den and I made a memorial. It was... terrible, Clover. She was their friend. They'd all known her for so long, and then suddenly one day, she's just... gone.
I hope that never happens to you. I know you're out there, somewhere. You aren't gone. But you might be... some day... and I'm afraid of that.
You have a reason to come back, you know that? Those two shards of citrine you left behind, they're growing. Makyna told me they have life within them. It's strange to think... but I've warmed up to the idea. I've been talking to them every day, telling them stories, like you do. My stories aren't as good. I tell them all about you, hoping that when they emerge, they'll know who you are. I wonder if they'll love stories as much as you.
I want you to come back, Clover. I miss you. You know, I didn't really have anyone before. In Orion, everybody I made friends with eventually went away. Except for you. You kept coming back. Suddenly you were everything to me, and then just as quickly, he took you away. ...It hurts... Sometimes it feels like you're gone, like Bevy. But I know you aren't. It's still you out there, even if you're dark. Please... come back. Even if you're dark. I just want you back.
The memory began to flicker out, leaving Bartos in darkness. His brows knitted together, staving off the overwhelming sadness that had settled in its place. He remained close to the chrysali, as though warmth had seeped from them, but he knew that it was his own body heat leeching into their surface. He could make believe that it belonged to someone else, and hoped that no one else would find him there. Maybe, if he was lucky, he would sink into the shadows too.