how easy it was for them to bounce roles — performer and audience, speaker and listener, somewhere in between. damask waited patiently for the next act; it took a moment this time, the space of a fresh inhalation. once it had passed, ashtoreth stretched and rose back to her feet. she kicked it off with a simple repetition to clarify the answer to come — only to lose her footing again. the fledgling kept herself just barely still, trembling with effort and restraint. gotta trust her, gotta trust her. sure enough, ash corrected, eyes bright, voiceless laughter in her mouth. damask nodded her encouragement: keep going! and continue she did. i, was, followed by ... unmistakably, small. the next sequence was the same in construction, right up until the finish. she cocked her head, thinking. that gesture back-and-forth, it indicated them both in equal measure, not one or the other. the final sign confirmed it. i was like you. it hit her like an electric shock, and she couldn't help but start. like her, meaning: small, as said, (and oh, how she wished she weren't,) but also — callow, naïve, an imperfect work in progress. a child, no matter how hard she tried to act otherwise.
but — she didn't mean it that way. damask smoothed her feathers and settled, about as embarrassed by the overreaction as she was by its precursor. it's cool, kid. just watch.
she almost missed the sentence that followed, but she caught the last gesture. explore. extrapolating from there was easy enough: i explored, presumably here. they had that in common, then. and the new sign that came next, after a familiar preamble ... this was maybe her favorite yet, crystal-clear in its joy and sincerity. i loved it here. it pressed a smile onto damask's face, like a dried rose into paper. but she would have to amend that interpretation, for it wasn't quite finished — to explore, ash went on, and ... ah, she knew this one for sure. play.
all together, now!: i loved to explore and play here.
if damask could've applauded, she would've. she offered up a smile instead — not a thin one or a faint one, but a genuine grin, pinching her eyes from the bottom up, even showing off an upper row of teeth. the gratitude was mutual. given the evidence, it seemed as though ash's mutism was entirely involuntary; but where she couldn't speak, damask ... well. damask had all the tools, lips and a tongue and a working set of vocal cords, but she found that she ... didn't want to. that somehow, it didn't feel right. all of a sudden, her face fell, one inch and two. she ducked away a little, riding out a wave of discomfort, confusion. no, it had nothing to do with a feeling, only the imbalance of pros against cons. she was still uncertain of her ability to get it right, to convert thoughts into words without an inadvertent loss in translation; that was all it'd ever been. resolving the problem was just a matter of practice. she'd already made a whole lot of progress these past few weeks, see? she would adapt, she would control this, and she would get over it. she had to. she would.
but not in this here, not in this now. with ash, she didn't need to.
damask cleared her throat and hopped to her feet, shoving a (tighter) smile back on. right! signing. she let out a little chirp, then closed her eyes and tucked her chin into her chest. the rubbing motion wasn't very doable with a wing; ergo, she opted to press her claws to her heart instead, patting the spot a few times for emphasis. this done, she snapped back to attention, spun around, and repeated ash's sign for a comparison between them, waving her wing backward and forward with a push of her muzzle. i love it here, too ... a glance behind her, the way she'd come: canis, with its bones and its dust and its low-slung ceiling. the fledgling shook her head, exhaling confessionally. ... not there, though. but don't tell anybody that, okay?
a breath, a drop cap, and another new sign. eyes shining on the stars overhead, she lifted her wings to their greatest height. then, she let them curve down, meeting in the middle, and marched in a circle. that first gesture might've been interpreted any number of ways — amazing, wonderful, incredible — but any synonym would suffice, so long as she achieved the right effect. her exact intention: it's beautiful here.
the original question, though — it felt only right to answer it herself, per the laws of reciprocal conversation. better late than never. i dream ... she began with a chirrup, repeating that well-worn sequence — only to falter. oh. i didn't think this through too well, did i. what did she dream about? this: the inside of a chrysalis, brimming with air and fluid and a struggling, screaming body; aza'zel's yawning eyesockets, his throat torn apart, his ribs breaking like glass against the stone floor; damask's first kill and the dozens-and-counting after it. half the time, she woke up wheezing. i can't tell her that. so what could she say? she couldn't rescind her first three words, but the rest of them remained, hers to finish. what if she just — redacted the bad parts? all at once, it struck her, and she finished in a hurry, as if to compensate for the delay: ... of the past, as well.
omission didn't count as real dishonesty, right? especially not for the benefit of a friend. and, besides ... she'd sensed something a little off about ash's answer too, a glimmer of her former melancholy. maybe there was more to what'd happened here than she let on, and maybe, just maybe, she'd made the same choice: to sweeten and soften the bitter bite of the truth.
and that was just fine.
twice already, damask had made that gesture, like you — and now, she made it again, again, again, sliding into a breathy bout of laughter as she nodded and waved her wing back and forth. we're a lot alike, huh? at length, she collected herself, coughing slightly, and half-turned towards the edge of the roof. enough idle talk, silent or not. this would hurt — the tension in her chest would stick around for a while — but it'd be worth it. she thrust a wing from her chest to the distant throne, a grand sweep with outspread pinions; chin to chest, left, and forward. how about we explore? me and you, together? no mention of play, but her eyes sparkled with something very like it. without waiting for an answer, she spun around and jumped up to the parapet. somehow, she knew without a doubt that her company would follow. still, she threw a quick peek over her shoulder. just to make sure. no sign necessary, save for that look: you coming, ash?