i need someone now to look into my eyes and tell me
However long she had been conscious for was beyond her. Whatever she was was beyond her. Where she was, what day it was, what was going on-- these were all things that she didn't know. The one thing she did know, however, was the nipping feeling that something was wrong.
It'd been this way for as long as she could remember. She couldn't place what, exactly, was the thing wrong-- only that it was, and that it scared her. At least-- she was fairly certain this was fear.
Some days (had they been days? Or had it only been day, singular?) were better than others. They were perhaps, almost peaceful. She could hear quiet noises beyond the darkness, the chirping of birds and footsteps crunching in leaves, but other days were so, so bad. Some days she felt like she was suffocating in the dark. Often she opened her mouth to scream but found herself unable to-- she was in something that filled her mouth. It was horrible.
Today (?) was the former. There was a strange pitter-patter she hadn't heard before outside, but it was relaxing. Calming. She felt at ease for the first time in a long time (or perhaps it had only been hours, unclear). Her eyelids felt heavy, nodding off back into unconsciousness in... where ever she was, when she heard something new.
A voice, speaking words she hadn't heard before-- but that seemed distantly familiar. It took her a few seconds to really truly realise what they were, what they were saying. She knew them, she took comfort in them. She had to see where they were coming from, she decided.
But how? When she shifted she realised-- with some mild alarm --that her leg (was it a leg?) hit off against something smooth and hard. Was she trapped? How long had she been trapped for? How did she get out?
This was worse than the bad days. She threw herself back, and the back of her head and her shoulder blades hit the same wall-- smooth, hard, oddly cold. She felt like she was choking on the panic, the urge to scream rose in her throat again. From the outsider's perspective, they wouldn't have seen anything unusual, however. They only would have seen the beginnings of a moonstone chrysalis beginning to break apart. There was no reason to think that the creature inside was in a state of hysterical fear, but hysterical fear was only a fraction of what she was feeling right now.
A process that took a matter of second seemed to take cycles in her head. When you know nothing but blind panic the world simply slows down around you; minutes turn to hours and hours turn to cycles and cycles turn to years. She thrashed and she flailed and she failed to cry out for help, but eventually, after an agonizing few moments later, her hind leg jolted out and crushed through gemstone.
From there the crystal prison shattered around her. Dull light assaulted her pale eyes and she had to shut them and turn her head away before they stung too badly. She coughed raggedly, spiting out the embryonic fluids in her mouth. When she shifted on the spot she heard the crumble of moonstone underneath her, but underneath that, there was something soft. Her hands reached for it and she felt blades of something gentle and delicate kiss her calloused palms.
For a time she was mesmerized by everything around her-- even the stone she had just fought against to break out of. The moonstone was pretty, bone-white and glittery. It took her several moments to remember why she had started struggling in the first place.
Her small head lifted, though it was mostly a mass of thick, silvery hair that was matted to her tiny face. She found Attikias-- the same colour as she was, she observed --with something in his hands and another something curled up to his leg, but this one was a new colour-- gold and black and brown and pretty.
The hybrid took a ragged breath, staring in silence as her fawn legs curled up underneath her to listen to the odd twanging instrument and the quiet voice nearby. She shivered, cold-- but she was, for now, at peace.
For once.
"girl you know you gotta watch your health"
Astéri
seek what sets your soul on fire
Astéri is drifting off, slowly, comforted by the heat of his father’s leg, the soft music he’s plucking out on his newest in-stru-ment, (a new word! a pretty word; not as pretty as ‘blaze’ or ‘burn’ or ‘fire’, though) his voice crooning into the damp air, and even the little drip-drops of rain themselves, as much as he doesn’t like the wet.
His eyes flutter shut slowly, a soft ‘mrr’ drifting from his throat as he snuggles closer to the form of his father and his mind begins to drift. Just on the verge of dreams, he thinks—he thinks about hunting a mouse through the undergrowth, he thinks about the play of flame-light on a wall, he thinks—
—he hears sudden crumbling, crumbling, crack! noises, and his eyes snap open.
Kids! Sib-lings! (another new word)
The chrysalises are hatching!
“Dad, dad, dad!” he says, head snapping up from where it’s resting as he pushes his noise into Attik’s stomach to get his attention. “Dad!”
He watches with wide eyes as his siblings come out of their gemstone shells—their hatching, the emergence of many bodies from the gemstones, all so different, but, yet, all so similar to his dad, with grey-colored skin and little bits of gemstone on their bodies exactly like the ones on Dad’s shoulder, so clearly his.
Siblings…
“Hi…” he says, quietly, almost shyly, sparing a glance towards the chrysalis in the back that still hasn’t hatched yet before looking back at the other three.
His siblings…
...he can’t help but feel a sense of childish wonder at the sight of them.
His reverie is interrupted by a very different sound: wailing.
Astéri’s head rises to look for the source, finding it in his smallest sibling, the one that looks the most unlike Dad in appearance and most like…
...well, him, if barely.
He can’t help but feel a kinship towards this little nugget of a baby as he walks over Attikias’s legs to move next to his wailing sibling and curl around him, surprising himself as he finds himself big enough to do that. He nudges the little baby up with his nose, remembering vaguely a time when another cat had rumbled his chest to comfort him.
But no chest-rumbles come no matter how hard Astéri tries to do it, so he instead settles for resting his head next to his tiny sibling and murmuring, “It’s okay,” as gently as he can.
He glances back at Dad searchingly, a look of ‘Am I doing this right?’ in his eyes.