She looked at the sketches, and softened. Relaxed, just a bit. Looking at them, quiet.
"Kini-yolotl's horns were out a little more," she said gently, drawing the vague shape in the dirt with one of her feet. But otherwise, they were... perfect, and she felt the pang of grief as though it were brand new.
Then... describing Owlface? Well...
"Sort of a bird's face," she began.
"Pointy like a hawk's. And just behind his head was this... giant frilly part, like a lizard. It was like... almost as tall as he was. Went pretty high above his head." Sora drew a wobbly circle with a downward triangle in the middle, and then a sort of heart-shape around it.
"Uhh... yeah." Maybe she should stop trying to do drawing for a little while.
Sora's ears flicked up in surprise. Knowledge? Well... she supposed so.
"And, ah, I'd like that. The earring thing. Just, be careful where you put it -- make it between one of the ridges, 'cause otherwise it'll hurt like crazy." She sighed, and sat down to start talking.
"There were... eleven of us. We were given Life in a little cave. It was barely big enough for all of us at our full sizes. Eleven scraggly little babies of various origins. We only knew this creature called the Masked Merchant -- I know a real big secret about him, but that's something you'll have to give me something way extra for -- and he didn't give us names or anything. He'd bring us food and water, and might give a one-or-two word answer if we asked a question and he was in a good mood, but that was it. He was never, like... there. Physically or emotionally." She closed her eye, remembering.
"Kini-yolotl -- the ram? They were kind of the leader of our family. Tough and protective. They were smart, and cautious. Our guardian." She looked again, at the sketch.
"Before the Trial happened, Kini-yolotl asked me to help look after everyone if they died." She sighed. It was a heavy burden to bear.
"Then there was Orenstein, the monkey. He was fluffy. Another smart one -- most of them are," she said warmly -- but there was an implied 'me, not so much' on the end there.
"He kept the peace, when tensions would flare. He was an empath, and damn if he couldn't keep a secret. He died saving someone else's life." She gestured towards the handprint.
Simon... was going to be hard to talk about, but it needed to happen.
"Then there was, uh, Simon. The snake. We all wanted to leave the cave, you know? We all wanted to see what else was out there. We knew the food had to come from somewhere, you know? But Simon, he was always thinking about it." She swallowed hard.
"His dream was to, uh, see the trees. He was... quiet, and put others before himself." Sora was actually crying now, but didn't actually seem to notice.
Sora shrugged.
"We were all pretty caring. Always put each other first. Owlface was caring, too. When all we had was each other, it only made sense to rally together. Owlface was curious, and super sweet. He was interested in diseases. Super perceptive. He was always paying attention. I swear, he knew everything about you." She swallowed hard.
"And then there was Thalia. She was, uh, a tiger. She... wasn't killed in the Trial. She was murdered, by the Masked Merchant. She'd always been kind of adventurous, you know? A little skittish, a little flighty. But brave. She wasn't afraid of him, not like we were. She tried to make a run for it when we were being paraded to our deaths, and the Masked Merchant... he took her stone out of her body and turned it into dust, just by holding it in his hands." Her face twisted. Then, she figured that Deli would want to hear about the Trial, and at this point it had kind of turned into what was almost a therapy session.
Sora laughed a little bitterly.
"But maybe that was merciful. The rest of us, we were paraded into a cave called Hydra. The Masked Merchant released this... monster. Shadows and cold. It filled the whole room, and swallowed up the light. It turned Hydra against us, more than usual, and picked us off one by one. There were others, too -- volunteers. But we were there against our will. Simon... he died trying to save someone. Kini and Owlface went after him. They wanted to-- to try and keep him safe, but the darkness... it took all three. The shadow-monster... it used them like puppets. It stole their bodies, and we-- we saw them, the awful gashes and the blood. They screamed and begged. Begged us to follow them into the shadows in voices that weren't exactly their own. It was a cruel trick, and it almost worked. It did work on Simon." She shuddered at the memory, the scars on her body throbbing.
"We watched all of them turn to Oil, at the end of the Trial. Orenstein, Owlface, Kini-yolotl... Simon." Sora's breath caught.
"Simon, he-- he called my name. Begged me to help him, told me he was... scared. I'm still not sure if it was him or the shadows."
It had gotten heavy, fast. But she sighed, looking down at her feet.
"I'm getting these tattoos because I feel guilty for their deaths. Thalia... I can avenge Thalia." Chrysoberyl eye, flashing in the light.
"But everyone else? All I have is their memory, and... I want to keep them close to me."
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