Nov 09 2020, 03:49 PM

At least it was clear now. Taking in a deep breath, Attikias leaned back on the log he'd laid by his firepit, carefully grinding a small whetstone against the tip of a halberd. The poor weapons were rusted to hell and back, but he could still care for them, keep them sharp and out of the rain in his tent.
That is to say, he kept them in his second tent. He wouldn't dare risk his kids accidentally rolling over and cutting themselves in their sleep. He might be a bit of a hoarder, but at least he was careful about it. Speaking of hoarding, Attikias placed his hand within one of the few uncracked urns he owned, retrieving a bit of jerky to gnaw on as he idly thought. The fire in front of him was going, and he was drying out the remains of a deer he'd hunted before returning home. Its hide hung up across from him, to the edge of the camp, while he continued his work of getting this weapon into a usable manner.
He wondered if he'd ever use it. Or, even, if he'd use the knife. That damn knife- he winced when he thought of it, feeling its permanent weight at his hip. He hadn't used it on lessers, even, for cycles now. One carving was enough. One kill for it was enough.
Attikias laid the spear down on his lap as he took the knife in his hand. He brandished it before the fire, in the light of day, turning it over and studying it as he did so many times before. He had to use it to kill someday, and he had to give the statue he made to the Collector. Not a hard task for someone who didn't mind killing. But other gembounds like him, they were sentient, and he'd just remove a life if he killed them. Would they deserve it? What if they had their own families? What would become of him if he let himself murder?
He sighed as he sheathed the knife back and returned to his work. No. He'd cross that bridge if he came for it- he'd kill if he had to. He could do that. He would do that. For his safety, for his children, he would use this knife and protect the family he worked at so hard to keep. But for now, there was peace, and there was quiet. He could let himself be happy. He could let himself forget. Couldn't he?
@Tahi-shei