The Doctor drew closer, and Khavur had not the desire nor the strength to snap at him like the zoisite had. Khavur was done snapping, left a crisp of the ember it had walked in as. It was surprising, to have burned out so quickly, but then... combustion takes lots of fuel. The grass weaving its way through Khavur hardly felt like anything at all. The blade warping the rough, plated flesh back to what was considered normalcy... might have been the only thing right with this scene. The Doctor, who had once tended Chaos-Two, at times with Khavur's supervision, was now tending to Khavur under Chaos-Two's watchful eyes. Along with those blades of grass, everything was twisted.
Silently, Khavur would be healed. Once disinfected, it would finally think to allow the Doctor into its mind for just a second: "...Thank you, Doctor." And then Khavur would follow Chaos-Two's gentle commands. To the lamb's nest they went, Khavur preparing for slaughter of another kind. "Don't move, just breathe." There was too much bile welled up in Khavur's lungs to truly accomplish breath, but it could at least pretend...
Magic has also flowed into them at Chaos-Two's touch, a magic not of Khavur's own creation. Like a donation of blood, it felt like sacrifice. It almost decimated Khavur, cleaved the Reaver in two and crushed it back together with the panic. The beast was in no position to argue, however, so accept it must. Just a day before, Khavur could not have wished more to close this gap of physical distance, and now Khavur was trying to pull mental space from a hat like some kind of magician. It wasn't working, of course, and now the Reaver would suffocate under the water and ash. The conversation of the other two present drowned away into wisps of grey, and perhaps for the best; Khavur might've torn the Overseer in two for that joke. But anyways...
"... Why did you do that, Khavur?"
There it was. And with it, the rain could demolish a city. How to explain? How to explain that? Khavur itself wasn't even fully aware. Within its own mind was a sprawling ecosystem, with a very important portion dedicated to... to... whatever all those sockets in all those skulls were holding, to the viscera stored in the predecessor of Vedette, exposed to that hideous laughter of Lord Dhracia, to the vulgar ire that pumped blood in place of a genuine heart when Vargas dared to make a thread on Maximus's Chaos-Two's Maximus's life. To all that, a toast, a section of dedication in Khavur's being that had always... well, Khavur couldn't remember a time when it hadn't been... And if it didn't have a word for that then how was it ever going to communicate...
There would be a haze in the air for some days, Khavur knew. To not even try to explain the existence for it, the need for it, was just as much a threat to Maximus as V- Master Vargas was. So it had to at least attempt. Khavur drew in a breath: "Ah-" Words wouldn't do. At last, it picked up its end of the line.
"I... I was a bird diving for prey, I believe." Did that make sense? "Getting faster and faster as I got closer and closer to impact." Khavur would try to send through the line the trail of emotions that would follow such an action -- the anticipation, the heat, the bloodlust. "I do not know... when it started." Definitely before the zoisite, definitely before Canis. Was it with Master Vargas? In a sense, yes, but before then; Lord Dhracia? ...No. "Protecting my siblings was my vow... training together towards perfection was what I wanted, but-" A sigh. Khavur sought Maximus's eyes now -- maybe that was a mistake, but she it wanted to see them, even if only for a moment. "-but it all felt wrong. A mess. ...It still feels like a mess, but a different kind..." This probably wasn't making any sense. Even with deliberate slowness to catch Khavur's processing up with its thoughts, it probably wasn't getting out the right way. How could it describe- hadn't Maximus felt it...?
"I could not stop seeing the red all around me. You felt it as well... it is so unlike your mind. Where you saw the forest, I saw the twigs. Misshapen, dry twigs-- I am sorry." Overall, that was Khavur in this moment. Every time it came up, every time it ate away at her its guts, there was only apology. As if that made it any better. It was probably futile, trying to hide this monstrousness inside. Like hiding an elephant behind a sapling... it was most likely only politeness that held Maximus back from calling attention to it. But the last thing Khavur wanted to do was parade it around in this space. There was no pride in or understanding of such entities here. Here was different. Here was supposed to be different. Because Maximus was different.
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