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RE: a bright-eyed kid // an empty vessel - Ashtoreth - Apr 19 2020 Ash had noticed that way Damask stiffened at the touch. How could she not? She knew the response like she knew the pathway air took down her own throat; intimiately. She didn't know if it was trauma, or mere surprise, but her avian niece was just as quick to hide it. Boundaries were something they both struggled with, then. She would remember it, and keep a distance, despite the way her heart frantically begged for connection and closeness at every opportunity. It wasn't worth it if it made others uncomfortable... She could feel her own skin crawling at the thought. But that was a background note, processed underneath the rest of her thoughts as the conversation strolled onward. The promise of companionship from Damask was uplifting, golden joinery filling one of the cracks in her heart. Ashtoreth's ears pricked, listening closely as Damask tried something-- magic, most likely. The child began to cough, eyes squinting shut with tears, stumbling back. Ashtoreth's feathery mane puffed out with alarm, and she raised a paw as if she could reach out and help. There wasn't much helping it. A thought occured to the hybrid; she didn't see an outward stone on the fellow gembound. It could have easily been hidden under feathers, of course, but... She didn't have much time to consider it as Dammy gasped, forcing out words before she had the air for them, which only further acerbated the issue. Ashtoreth's tail twitched, and she crouched low on the ledge, peering out into the city as the child had-- to give space, to show that it was "alright"... At least, that was the vibe she had gotten when Damask had done it. Her ears pivoted as she listened, all the same. The disjointed sentences pieced together a considerate thought from her niece, one that made her lips twitch up into a sly grin. A damn shame, really. She had a lot of thoughts, but when you were limited to the strain of using magic, well... It got tiring. After a certain point, you started taking the lazy way out and not speaking at all. Which, in turn, made it feel like no one wanted to listen to you in the first place. That was all things she didn't want to impose on the child, her tail flicking back and forth. Her point remained: even though making up a new, wordless language with Damask sounded fun; if she relied on magic, no one else had to put forth any extra effort. They wouldn't use a made-up language enough for it to be worthwhile. It was hard to want to put effort into something without being certain anyone else would care beyond the bare minimum. Dammy seemed different, sure, like another piece of her-- but just because Ash felt that way, didn't mean that the kiddo felt the same. She shook her head, and crossed her paws, settling her chin down on one as she peered at Damask, and then back to the broken city beyond the wall. @Damask ! RE: a bright-eyed kid // an empty vessel - Damask - Apr 21 2020 speaking made it worse. no sooner had she finished than another bout of coughing scraped her throat raw. damask quickened her pace, gulping in air through forcible motion. "maybe if we could talk without words." "magic is the eas —" and ashtoreth's spell promptly fizzled out. as she stopped to gather herself, damask faced her with effort and fought to do the same, chest heaving, shivers setting in. her breathing had started to quiet — the pain between her lungs, to subside — by the time ash settled and peered back at her. the child met that look, even as one eye trembled smaller than the other and nostrils flared and contracted in time with her pupils. then the invisible tug-o'-war broke, and she took a long moment to think. first, something to say. then, how to say it. ten seconds, twenty, thirty, and she had it. the young accipiter uttered a sharp, wordless chirp to catch her companion's attention, recapture the eye contact they'd severed, then breathed in and swallowed. in a series of slow-mo signs, she translated each word from sound to sight — mouthing each alongside the gestures, the shapes exaggerated to ensure legibility. despite the temptation to check herself, she straightened and kept her gaze trained on ashtoreth's, still panting (if softly) through just-parted lips. — — — — — and now, the whole question. in one fluid motion, she synthesized the sequence. first, her wings and tail brushed with a soft rustle — the former forward, the latter sideways — along the floor; then came the sign that indicated ashtoreth; and a tight circle of prancing, high-stepping feet. finally damask stood where she'd started and fell still had she just ... danced? the performance was purely functional, yes, but it must have looked ridiculous, pathetic half-grown mess that she was, and ash had been watching the whole time, and ... RE: a bright-eyed kid // an empty vessel - Ashtoreth - May 02 2020 Ashtoreth watched Damask from her perch, tail swishing idly behind her. The kid seemed to be considering it, giving a single rasping squeak of 'maybe' before the rooftop descended into a peaceful, thoughtful kind of silence. It was the kind of silence that Ashtoreth found comfort in, the kind that many others found intimidating. She saw no reason to fill it, except for the nagging sensation that she had put her niece (she didn't really feel like a niece...) on the spot. She turned her nose out toward the city once more, letting the drafty air currents of Orion's open sky whisk across her whiskers. Maybe there was an easier way besides trying to create a whole new language or using magic all the time, but it was difficult to think outside of the narrow box she had lived in her whole life. Was it so much to simply exist without the need to constantly be yammering away about one thing or another? Her thoughts didn't wander too far before Dammy's chirp drew her head back. Her head swirled around to peer at the youngest Vita, ears craning forward expecting more words. Instead, she was met with motion. Her pupils widened, and she shuffled her stomach to settle on the ledge, lowering her forepaws to brace against the parapet. A quizzical sweep of the wings, a tail wave of motion, a nose swung forth... Slow, methodical thoughts put to actions, and as Damask paced in place, Ash found her heart pounding in her chest and her breathing quick and shallow through her barely parted jaws. And then, Damask Vita repeated the motions, moving smoothly from one to the next in a beautiful dance, one that left Ashtoreth stunned. The child seemed just as stunned to have done it herself, and the pair stared at each other for a split second before Damask turned away, coughing once again. Ash's teeth clicked together as her jaws clenched, and she shoved herself off of the ledge, scrambling with an urgency across the roof to slide (nearly sliding past with the force of the motion) around Damask, wings flaring out to slow her as she dug her claws into the stone. She nearly careened into the gaping hole of the half collapsed roof, but in the end she raised her head and shuffled her feet under her lean, long body and swished her tail. She attempted to chirp, a harsh little wisp of air from her lungs pushed up the roof of her mouth; the start of a sentence, the drop cap of signing. Her whiskers trembled. A moment of hesitation. She-- Hadn't thought very far ahead, but it was fine. First thing was first, she needed to answer the question. Ashtoreth How to convey that word, however... Her movements still slow and exaggerated, she raised a wing and tucked her head into her shoulder. She had to stretch her wing forward to mime tucking her snout under her wing, because it didn't quite reach without her curling around in a donut. But the gesture was not quite sleeping-- she accompanied it, a bit awkwardly, with a step to the side and then back again, rocking her body this way and that. ... And then, she swished her tail again, She glanced back at Damask-- awkwardly, belatedly, realizing she had not mouthed the words, and to her credit she wasn't entirely sure she would know how to make the right shapes. She could kind of read them from Dammy, but it wasn't like she was deaf, it wasn't like she had a reason to know how to read lip shapes. Well, shit. With an inhale, she raised her head again, and repeated the motions, this time smoothly. It was poetic, and also, incredibly silly. She slowed to a stop, waving her tail once more for emphasis, to the right, to the right, but she let her head slip down toward the floor. Her deep, chestnut eyes peered up hesitantly at Damask as she huffed for breath. The air was scorching hot from sheer embarrassment, but she knew her niece had felt the same way. That was why she had charged headfirst into it. She wanted to show it was okay to-- to do this, silly as it was. She didn't want Damask to think her ideas were dumb, or naive, or any of the horrible things that her brain told her on a regular basis. Damask, after all, was crisp and white and young and unfettered-- all things that Ash wished she could go back to being. In that moment, she was glad there was nothing but the sounds of their breaths and the shuffling of claws and talons on stone. She might've babbled out something crummy and sappy, otherwise. RE: a bright-eyed kid // an empty vessel - Damask - May 09 2020 then, the standstill broke, and it broke hard as ashtoreth dove from the ledge in a wild flurry of feathers and fluff. the colorful shape of her skidded along a curving trajectory, headed straight for ash had the answer: a sharp, voiceless whisper of a chirp — an instant's uncertainty — and a sign. for all her hesitation, all of her restraint, damask's face lit up with delight. and then — ash put it all together. each movement, woven into a flowing dance; each gesture, a jigsaw sentence. the pieces snapped into place, each shining brighter alongside its siblings. the final flick of the tail made sure of it. i was here ... damask drew in a gasp of awestruck wonder, smiling and nodding her applause. it was ... the first was simple. she prefaced with a chirrup, then bowed her head, raised a wing-claw to the far corner of her right eye, and tapped twice: this next sequence called for further articulation. another drop cap, to start, and a chin-to-chest tuck. next, she swiped her tail left-to-right and whirled around in tall, springing steps. these damask executed in quick succession, given their familiarity through repetition. those that followed were more exaggerated. she spread her wings from her sides and beat them, twice — she'd been shooting for three, but a wince interrupted her, breath rattling briefly at the pressure. a moment's panting intermission, and then damask inhaled and released her third chirp. she relaxed to her default and blew out a sigh: one of humor, satisfaction, and pleasant exertion. at last the fledgling settled to the floor, tail curling around her feet. eagerly, expectantly — anxiety nowhere to be found — her eyes met her companion's. this wasn't like speaking. not at all. maybe her performance had been laughable, made so by the body she inhabited, but ashtoreth's was not. no matter the sight, the idea was damask's; and it was worth being proud of. RE: a bright-eyed kid // an empty vessel - Ashtoreth - Jul 04 2020 Ashtoreth snorted as Damask gestured back the sign for I and see, pointing at her eye. It was a clear and obvious symbol, so much more succinct than hers about dreaming... But... But if Damask understood it, then it made her give a toothy grin right back. The feathery mustelid did the only thing that made sense, she mirrored the sign right back, dipping her nose at the end of her own series of nods, and raised a paw to her own right eye. Then, of course, it was time for her to pay real close attention as Damask had more to sign. Flying, most likely. A middle gesture, connecting it to the next, and, ... Sweeping? Surveying? But then it clicked, the first thing she had done when exposed to the grand, glittering stone city: Exploring. Ashtoreth gave another nod of acknowledgement, shuffling up on her paws as though eager to keep the conversation going, but as soon as Damask had caught her breath, she gave another chirp. The noodle settled back on her haunches, and with a few blinks to wet her eyes, she was ready for more. Damask repeated her sign for dreaming, and then froze, and began again. She signed dreaming once more, then swept her wings and gestured to Ash; the inquiry plain as day. There was a brief moment, a sudden flicker of fear that washed through her-- that she would either have to lie, or worse, explain what had happened cycles in the past, so long before Damask was even conceived that the fact she was still traumatized by it seemed laughable (to her self-deprecating, shamed internal monologue) and simply irrational to even bring up. It certainly wasn't something that Damask needed to know, nor was it something that she wanted to weigh the child down with. It wasn't Damask's job to fix her. As kind as it was for the child to invent an entire new language-- something she couldn't even do for herself-- and humor her with company, that gave her no right to suddenly dump a bunch of baggage on the kid at the first drop of a hat. Okay. No worries. So she could just lie. Just one, teensy problem: she didn't want to lie, either. Damask actually understood her, of course she wanted to open up and actually... Be able to talk about it for once in her life. Shit. Then... Maybe. Keep it... Casual. Half-truths, enough to give the kid an idea that it wasn't necessarily pleasant dreams, but nothing to worry about. All in the past, right? Ashtoreth could do that. So she inhaled a fresh breath, and stretched out her limbs, flexing her wings, and gave a little air-burst of an unvoiced chirp. First, the half-dance mirrored of her statement, an acknowledgement of the question. Tail wag and a dip of the nose into a twisting tuck of her nose to her wing all while sweeping her feet, She tucked her head in, tail swishing to the right, pressing herself to the ground, pulling in her wings and laying her fur flat, squishing herself in as much as she could. It wasn't a perfect gesture, but-- She tucked her nose down and swished her tail, Unlike, perhaps, could be done by waving a limb cutting across, separating the two things. It didn't feel perfect, but it would work for now. She moved on quickly from there, the statement still unfinished. She silent-chirped, and gestured to herself again, drawing her wing in about her flank and looking toward it as she swept it outward in the Damask's grand, invented gesture and bounced up into a stomp. Ashtoreth pressed on to what she really wanted to get across. Her feet tapped the stone again, tail wagging left to right, and lowered her nose. She closed her eyes and drew her ears forward, showing relaxed contentment across her face and rubbed her paw to her chest. The noodle took a deep breath, feeling nearly as winded as Damask making all these elaborate little gestures (at least her stone wasn't embedded in her ribcage) and then dropped down into a bow, spine arching, and began to ruffle up her feathers. She wriggled in place, wing tips spread and twitching, excitement writhing down her whole pelt. The symbol clear as day, though it might have needed some adjustment for Dammy to sign-- Normally, she'd repeat the gesture, but she panted as she eased back into sitting, shuffling her wings back into place. She pulled at her magic, wanting to say at least-- That was alright. She squinted her eyes, smiling at the kid, but she couldn't manage to offer a question back just yet. It was a lot of work coming up with all these new ways of gesturing; her head was swimming trying to come up with more and more ways to get her point across. Though, despite her exhaustion, she could feel the satisfaction hung in the air. It was so, so worth it. Someday she'd tell Damask just how much this meant to her, even if the kid could already see it across her face. @Damask ! RE: a bright-eyed kid // an empty vessel - Damask - Jul 26 2020 how easy it was for them to bounce roles — performer and audience, speaker and listener, somewhere in between. damask waited patiently for the next act; it took a moment this time, the space of a fresh inhalation. once it had passed, ashtoreth stretched and rose back to her feet. she kicked it off with a simple repetition to clarify the answer to come — only to lose her footing again. the fledgling kept herself just barely still, trembling with effort and restraint. but — she almost missed the sentence that followed, but she caught the last gesture. explore. extrapolating from there was easy enough: i explored, presumably here. they had that in common, then. and the new sign that came next, after a familiar preamble ... this was maybe her favorite yet, crystal-clear in its joy and sincerity. i loved it here. it pressed a smile onto damask's face, like a dried rose into paper. but she would have to amend that interpretation, for it wasn't quite finished — to explore, ash went on, and ... ah, she knew this one for sure. play. all together, now!: i loved to explore and play here. if damask could've applauded, she would've. she offered up a smile instead — not a thin one or a faint one, but a genuine grin, pinching her eyes from the bottom up, even showing off an upper row of teeth. the gratitude was mutual. given the evidence, it seemed as though ash's mutism was entirely involuntary; but where she couldn't speak, damask ... well. damask had all the tools, lips and a tongue and a working set of vocal cords, but she found that she ... didn't want to. that somehow, it didn't feel right. all of a sudden, her face fell, one inch and two. she ducked away a little, riding out a wave of discomfort, confusion. no, it had nothing to do with a feeling, only the imbalance of pros against cons. she was still uncertain of her ability to get it right, to convert thoughts into words without an inadvertent loss in translation; that was all it'd ever been. resolving the problem was just a matter of practice. she'd already made a whole lot of progress these past few weeks, see? she would adapt, she would control this, and she would get over it. she had to. she would. but not in this here, not in this now. with ash, she didn't need to. damask cleared her throat and hopped to her feet, shoving a (tighter) smile back on. right! signing. she let out a little chirp, then closed her eyes and tucked her chin into her chest. the rubbing motion wasn't very doable with a wing; ergo, she opted to press her claws to her heart instead, patting the spot a few times for emphasis. this done, she snapped back to attention, spun around, and repeated ash's sign for a comparison between them, waving her wing backward and forward with a push of her muzzle. a breath, a drop cap, and another new sign. eyes shining on the stars overhead, she lifted her wings to their greatest height. then, she let them curve down, meeting in the middle, and marched in a circle. that first gesture might've been interpreted any number of ways — amazing, wonderful, incredible — but any synonym would suffice, so long as she achieved the right effect. her exact intention: the original question, though — it felt only right to answer it herself, per the laws of reciprocal conversation. better late than never. omission didn't count as real dishonesty, right? especially not for the benefit of a friend. and, besides ... she'd sensed something a little off about ash's answer too, a glimmer of her former melancholy. maybe there was more to what'd happened here than she let on, and maybe, just maybe, she'd made the same choice: to sweeten and soften the bitter bite of the truth. and that was just fine. twice already, damask had made that gesture, like you — and now, she made it again, again, again, sliding into a breathy bout of laughter as she nodded and waved her wing back and forth. fade and exit here? :"D
RE: a bright-eyed kid // an empty vessel - Ashtoreth - Jul 26 2020 In such a short period of time, Ashtoreth and Damask had clicked, and it was clear as day in even down to the smallest details. Seeing the grin on Dammy's face was enough to elict a delightful thrum in her chest, pride swelling to fill every crevice. It passed after a moment, a look of melancholy (or simple thought?) falling on to those monochromatic features... She did her best not to overthink it, and with a lick of patience, Damask cleared her throat. Feathers ruffling, Ashtoreth sat back on her haunches, rounded ears craning forward at her niece's little chirp. Dammy loved Orion too; naturally. What wasn't there to love? Tons of hiding spots, and a huge vaulted ceiling to sweep, the tower to perch on and the various cliffsides surrounding the city's perimeter. The dazzling ceiling, the sparks of quartz that pocketed every few meters. The winged mustelid paused, her whiskers twitching as Damask glanced back toward Tunnel K, back toward... Canis? And shook her head, a comparasion that made Ash's fur prickle and nearly stand on end down her spine. ... she didn't like home much either, some days. She wanted to ask why, but Damask was already gesturing, and... Didn't she already have some idea? Canis was suffocating, in more than one way. She was glad that Aure had convinced her to come home, but despite barely knowing Damask, she felt that. The raptor wouldn't have to worry about her telling a soul, even without asking. It was a private thing. Ashtoreth only nodded in agreement, dark eyes focused on that unspoken feeling between them. A new sign. She blinked, trying to interpret the large, wonderous sign that accompanied here. Maybe she felt safety here, though that didn't quite feel right for such a grand gesture. Something about here that wasn't the same as Canis. Oh, maybe that it was big? It didn't matter much, anyway; and the next line caught Ashtoreth's curiosity. Damask expressing her own dreams of the past, despite being so young... How could a kid long for the past? As Damask stepped to the edge, and extended an offer for the two of them to run off an adventure together, Ashtoreth was bounding up after her before Dammy even looked back. @Damask ! fade and exit <3 |