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RE: out of the frying pan - V-Ruby-One - May 18 2024 It crossed its arms, standing back up to its full height and looked away from the gathered with a snarl. It was fuming. It wanted to rage and tantrum and blast them all with fire and fury, but it knew that it would be pointless and stupid to do so. Only that need to prove itself, control itself, stop it from going down that path it feared more then anything else, kept it steadfast. That didn't mean that it liked any of this. RE: out of the frying pan - V-Onyx-Three - May 18 2024 A visitor? Who? Oh, of course. It must be Alek. They were supposed to meet in Fornax for Onyx-Three to take them to Draco, but those plans had fallen through. God it had been a stupid decision to chrysalize. Yet, they weren't sure if they were even ready to face the dragon after all that had happened. But it seemed he had come anyways, to see Vargas. Alek had done all this for them, and they couldn't even stay alive long enough to be there for the meeting. But a spark of hope arose-- had he been accepted into the Forge? "Of course." So this was really happening. Hydra was a fine choice. They recalled how Vargas told them that he oversaw the Trials of Hydra, and thought it ironic. He had yet to visit the place, and so his curiosity compelled him to see what may live there. The prey they would find would surely be unique. They nodded at the decision, gaze returning to Vargas with the last phrase. @Vargas RE: out of the frying pan - Vargas - May 18 2024
@V-Onyx-Three RE: out of the frying pan - V-Onyx-Three - May 19 2024 They followed Vargas away from the others, already beginning to feel their heart beating faster. It was a quick transition away from what had come before, from the situation with V-Ruby-One to Alek. But they would not complain. It was not something they wanted to linger upon, though the topic of the dragon was an equally as stressful one. Perhaps even more. Alek. The name said in Vargas' voice made it all seem so much more real. "Yes." They say after a pause. "He is my friend. I was to escort him to meet you here had I not chrysalized. He wanted to join the Forge." Onyx-Three didn't know where Vargas was going with this, but it was clear enough that the dragon had made the journey on his own despite their absence. But as to what part he wanted to talk to them about they weren't sure, and didn't want to make assumptions. @Vargas RE: out of the frying pan - Vargas - May 20 2024
@V-Onyx-Three RE: out of the frying pan - V-Onyx-Three - May 20 2024 Perhaps it had been an oversight, or perhaps they had been unsure whether the title of 'Master' applied only to those within the Forge such as the title of 'boss'. It always seemed harder to think when they were around Alek, but now they understood the further meaning of the title. "My apologies Master Vargas. I will not make the same mistake." There was a questioning gaze upon the mention of 'decisions', which implied more than one decision? Onyx-Three had thought it was only about joining the Forge, what else could there be? And why did they have to be consulted if it was about Alek? But all of these things would soon be learned, and they listened intently to him speak. Alek wouldn't be joining. Disappointment flickered in their eyes before they suppressed it. It was not that Onyx-Three had thought it was guaranteed, but it still hurt. But he would be allowed in Draco. They wondered if the dragon would even want to stay here if they weren't part of the Forge considering the lack of water. They shouldn't have made promises they couldn't keep, even if it hadn't been a promise. No, they shouldn't have offered something and gotten his hopes up only to have it broken in such a way. But they had to admit that the reasoning Vargas provided for this rejection made sense. They had not known of the conflict between the two groups. And it was now that they were realizing that it had been in a way kind of stupid to agree to visit Alek's family without taking proper precautions. If they had revealed their alignment, would Cadenza have smited them out of existence? Though the dragon had seemed too friendly to do that. Yet, it was from that same meeting that they had learned of how close the bond of family was. He could not imagine Alek ever choosing the Forge over his family. How complicated such things could be. Choices. But perhaps they had made a choice as well. Even if they didn't want to think of it as one. Choices were such a conscious decision, it was easier to believe that it had been a result of obligations. Speaking more than he listened. It was clear Vargas did not take as kindly to this as he did. Perhaps that was why their own friendship with Alek turned out so well. One who spoke more, and one who listened. "Love?" the word slipped out of their mouth before they could stop it, even though they knew they shouldn't interrupt Vargas. It was a clear expression of shock. It wasn't that they hadn't known this information. Well, they did, but they didn't think the dragon would actually tell Vargas about it, though he luckily didn't seem to have any negative opinions on the matter. The entire situation seemed strange, as if their two worlds were blending together, colliding, and it only made everything so much more messy. But why had Alek chosen to lay out such feelings in the open? It had felt like something shared between just the two of them. A secret. Yet one he was glad to keep for fear of needing to confront it. And now here was the part that truly hit him. A child!? Cue the internal 'what the hell is happening' and 'this can't be real' and a million other emotions surrounding this that they really couldn't comprehend and was somehow even more hard to understand than the whole concept of 'love'. It was a somewhat endearing thought that Alek would have wanted to give him an assistant, but the concept of children as a whole and needing to raise and care for another being was daunting. Not to mention, Onyx-Three didn't even think they were ready to handle both tasks at hand. Time was valuable when you had a job, and if they were going to have a child, they would do it correctly. As in, put in as much effort as he could to ensure they could grow up well-adjusted and driven without feeling the pangs of loneliness should he be unable to dedicate enough time to them due to his work. And whoa, secretly plant a child here? It wouldn't have been wrong for Onyx-Three to feel betrayed by this. All of this had happened out of their control, and they could see now why Vargas had been concerned. Alek making such decisions without consulting him hurt in a way he did not want to linger upon, and they were glad at least that the dragon and Vargas had in the end decided not to lie. Their body was tense without them realizing it, but it was with these words that they allowed themselves to relax. Nothing had happened yet. He was glad Vargas consulted him on this matter without going ahead with anything. And now it was their turn to speak. Starting from the top, in order, that would be the best way to go about this complicated mess. "I have met his family." Yes, start with a fact. That was much easier than diving into feelings that compromised more of this than they liked. "They were kind and friendly to me. But they did not know I am with the Forge." Though they wondered if it would have been possible to tell either way, considering the group had a rather distinct theme going on. "Alek is always loyal to family. I understand the decision." Love. "'In love'? He taught me familial love. It is what I feel for the Forge." And the Sentinel and their mother, but it didn't feel right to say that directly aloud to Vargas. "I told Alek I love him. But I will always place my responsibilities within the Forge above it." Onyx-Three felt the need to clarify, even if they felt guilty in saying so. Not that it was a lie-- it was not. But they felt ashamed that if it came down to it, if they had to make a choice-- the Forge would come first. They did not want to hurt the dragon's feelings, so they would just had to hope no conflict would ever happen. "I do not understand why he has doubts. I have told him my feelings." And it didn't cross his mind that perhaps 'in love' was not the same as familial love. Now for the child issue. They were actually, what was that word, touched that Vargas was willing to support them with whatever decision they chose. "He did not tell me about children." All of it was so completely out of the blue, at least to them, that they were still attempting to wrap their mind around it. "I do not think I am ready. I want to focus upon my work. Perfect it." they paused here, in thought. "I should be at least as skilled as my parents before I care for a child. After the punishment I wish to attempt transcendence." "He is welcome... but I wish to carry out the hunt before speaking to him. There is a lot to comprehend." Onyx-Three felt another wave of guilt at basically ghosting their friend, but there was way too much for them to put any of the jumbled emotions into proper speech and communication at the moment. "I hope he understands I need time. Could you tell him? While I am gone?" He knew this was going to disappointment. That it was going to hurt. But would it not hurt more if he said the wrong thing? Rambled without understanding his own words? No, that would be far worse. This bond could not be damaged more than it already was. There was still that burning sensation inside of them, the need to see Alek, but it was greatly overwhelmed by the guilt and shame and confusion. @Vargas RE: out of the frying pan - Vargas - May 20 2024
@V-Onyx-Three RE: out of the frying pan - V-Onyx-Three - May 22 2024 Though Vargas had a visible reaction, Onyx-Three did not seem to notice, or at least not give any indication that they did, too burdened by their thoughts to maintain focus on the present. Then Vargas spoke in response, pulling them out of their thoughts running over their own words again and again that seemed incorrect now that they had said them, or at least in the sense that they weren't as precise as they could be and they wished they could be. It had been enough to convey their meaning without exactly expressing the feeling behind them. Something to work on, they noted, then thought with a pang of sadness that it was Alek who had taught them anything about feelings at all. "That would be best," they agreed. Vargas always knew how to put things the right way, they thought. It was the best way to express to Alek how they felt without actually getting at the actual reason. A half-lie, a half-truth. He could imagine the dragon worrying already, and it wasn't hard at all to imagine Alek trying to follow after them if they knew where they were going and without Vargas' instructions not to. Even if there had been no such rule in place, Onyx-Three would never let him come along, a water dragon in a place with barely any water, or at least that's what he knew about Hydra. It was an unnecessary risk when it was their punishment to undergo, and much too dangerous. Even if he was avoiding the inevitable conversation now, Onyx-Three promised themselves that they would speak to Alek for sure after this. Their ears perked up at the compliment. "Thank you." This had all been a whirlwind of emotions, and now there had been a quick turn from Vargas' disappointment in them to praise. It wasn't that the two were contradictory, but rather, it was hard to take in both sides of everything in such a short timespan. Onyx-Three listened to the information presented about the family. This all went further back than he expected, and he was realizing now that though Alek had merely introduced him to his direct family, there was extended family beyond that that he had never considered. "That is unfortunate." They wondered how different everything would be if there wasn't the entire family conflict. If Alek had been allowed to join, what would've changed? But no, there was not point lingering upon such things. Not to mention, if a fight to occur, Onyx-Three could only imagine what could occur if they encountered dragons like Cadenza who were actually violence-prone. Would the Forge be able to hold up? The joke flies right over their head, or at least, they are still too preoccupied on thinking about love to catch it. "I won't." he promises, a faint smile drifting across his lips. And this would be one promise they wouldn't break. They had so many things they wanted to do. And they needed to talk to Alek. Death wasn't an option, for they feared it would cause pain to others beyond themselves. It was strange, to think that. Was that what love was? A kind of pain. Was it even worth it? He almost moves to leave, but the question forces its way into open air. "Have you ever loved, Master Vargas? Is it... worth it?" @Vargas RE: out of the frying pan - Vargas - May 22 2024
@V-Onyx-Three RE: out of the frying pan - V-Onyx-Three - May 23 2024 He felt, for a moment, some strange sense of pity for Vargas. It was one thing they never thought they would feel towards him, but then again, perhaps it was not something to pity. After all, looking at how he was now, perhaps love was not a very necessary emotion. But what was meant by 'not made for it?' Could he not feel it, or did he choose not to? Survival... yes, that made sense. It was just like how they were willing to give their life for the Forge if necessary, in the fight against Order. It was the one thing they knew for sure could live on, if only because they could not imagine Vargas failing. To hear emotions talked about in a detached or distant way was strangely effective. It made it easier to analyze how and why they worked. It too, made him realize they were not something that simply existed, but rather, something selected for among generations for what favored survival. He wondered how far back his ancestry went, and if they had felt this kind of love for anyone before. And yet-- 'no emotion lasts forever.' So this love would fade. But would it? It was hard to believe, in the moment, even if they accepted the rest of Vargas' words. It burned so strongly that it was impossible to imagine it becoming nothing in the future. Yet this was not something they had to worry about. They already had the strength to rein it in control, to prioritize their duty to the Forge, what might last, over what might not. He hoped Alek would forgive them for this. And in a way, Onyx-Three thought that the dragon had made his choice as well. He too, had chosen family. If only there were some other world where the two would not be in conflict. They would enjoy what they could have with Alek, ignore what they could not, and that would be enough. Feel what they felt before they died, or it became impossible to be on the same side. Perhaps as a mixture of a monster and something more feeling, it was right that they should ask for advice from both sides of their being. He did not show affection as freely as some others, reserved and controlled in this manner, yet his other side enabled him to feel it if not express it. "Thank you... I believe I understand 'love' now. I will live by it-- what lasts over what does not. And visit the Blacksmith. I have no more questions." It was a few words for so much information, but it was more than enough for them to mull over for some time. They did not want to keep V-Ruby-One waiting too long, and there was much to think about. So here he paused, waiting a beat in case Vargas had any last words before they left. And then they would have to see how the rest of the group was doing, if they had left, or if they were still there. He wondered if Scion and V-Ruby-One had been arguing in the meantime, and what the Sentinel was up to. And in addition, who it was that Vargas would be sending to check up on them. @Vargas |