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you're a good shot, you're a good soldier - Khavur - Feb 08 2022 Sometimes the absence of something turns out to be its presence from another angle. Sometimes darkness makes an imprint on the mind like light. The space that surrounds an object is just another dimension of the object in that sense. The absence of the voice in Khavur's mind only alluded to the whispers all around it, the whispers of the negative space. Oh, Maximus — they wouldn't know it now, but Khavur understood better that memory they had once shared. You're in its dreams. You're in its thoughts, because you're not in its thoughts. It still talks to you sometimes, more frequently now; picking up a dead end phone and rambling on just to throw its own skull at a brick wall. Because that's what it felt like doing some days. Sometimes you respond, but you don't know that. You never will, at this rate, while you're still hidden away in that rock somewhere— Still, from what Khavur could gather, not-Maximus-yet was still right. Artificially correct. That just meant Khavur was correct, didn't it? Funny, that. The world must be upside-down. Where once the limb was the extension of the body, the body is now the extension of the limb. Like potatoes? Some breathing mound of stone lurked outside the entrance to Draco. One could not say it stood Sentinel, nor could it be called Overseeing... but living, existing in this space, and watching, all these it certainly was. At first, Khavur could have walked on past it, jaws stiff and aching for the hunt ahead. But then, with such alarming, bone-breaking speed, it realized: no it could not. The laws of the universe must be changing, because Khavur could not actually take another step forward upon seeing this pile of rocks. No, Khavur could scarcely breathe in its presence, let alone stare or attempt to process. The world... the world must be imploding, and exploding, at the very same time. Keeping it at a perfect, violent, erupting stagnation. One tree and one boulder, one fresh and one old, and one says to the other in nothing short of anticlimactic disbelief: @Orthoclase-Alpha RE: you're a good shot, you're a good soldier - Orthoclase-Alpha - Feb 08 2022 There was no warm sense of satisfaction in knowing that this pocket of the Cave was safe, no feeling of triumph; no gratitude when one of the Forge returned unscathed nor a castigating grimace when they were dirtied or marred with struggle. All Alpha did was watch, watch, and watch as maggots threaded their too-many limbs through its chitin, wriggling and writhing beneath the skin. Their flea bites gnawing at tender hide left sores. One's gaze crawling over it found pleasant shelter in those sores. It never instigated when eyes met—always concerned, confused, baffled meeting ill-composed, flighty, barely buttoned-up suit. It'd learned how to give no reaction despite the heart beating itself senseless against its lungs, crushing into muscle and making every steady breath a staggering feat. Relearned to keep its head high, snout straight, eyes forward. Look busy, be undisturbed, do not fret over the cyclical nature of its failures. That was the kicker, the images burned into its retinas. Zoisite and Labradorite. Two for two. Strike three approached at the bottom of the seventh inning. It told itself that it was unconcerned, but… if they…— it was better to be despised, to be uncared for, unattached— Orthoclase-Alpha barely glanced at Khavur as it passed by, so clumsily-made and bulky but effortless in its honed grace—just a reflexive slide of pupils to its left, and then set back to rights. Instead, the sun echoed disbelief identical to the way the others had. Without so much as a designation, but a title it had rationalized against having—undeserving, pathetic, living day by day and watching the calendar pages flutter to the ground—and two heads not quite staring, but still presently aware of Alpha; aware enough to make its skin crawl and shell seethe. A curl of nausea came with the minimalist movement of turning its head to gaze somewhere past Khavur's back. Another as its throat seized, stifling whatever marvel of a monosyllabic response had been about to leave parted jaws. Teeth slotted back together like pieces of a puzzle. It tipped its snout downward. Acknowledgement. Barely. @Khavur RE: you're a good shot, you're a good soldier - Khavur - Feb 09 2022 Acknowledgement. Ruptures and ripples in the ozone that could devastate the planet forever, but all Khavur got was acknowledgement. That was fine, though — it needed little else. What happened, for a moment after a single word and acknowledgement, was a process of thought that found through the swamp of all the festering others. Rational, reasonable thought. It felt like the pot staring into the void of the kettle, sitting here staring at "Overseer Orthoclase-Alpha"'s scars and wounds and wondering if it should say anything. If it should notice anything at all. Khavur was going to notice one way or another; the frame, the shift in attitude, the look in those putrid green eyes. Registering all these small details that only ever hinted at possible emotion, registering monster to monster, Khavur decided its path. The silence they had had to bear in the meantime was just a tad too long, but Khavur was practiced in the delicate art of directing its own choir. @Orthoclase-Alpha RE: you're a good shot, you're a good soldier - Orthoclase-Alpha - Feb 09 2022 By the time Khavur set itself to rights and stepped up to the platform, the hybrid monster (this was monstruo y monstruo, right?) found its jaws parched, tongue a brick of lead and poison in them. Were it not for the zipper of its teeth, it may have lolled limply out in a feverish pant. Waiting, waiting, waiting. Putrescent eyes pinched upward into a grimace. That scowl deepened, harshened against the blow that was this will be more than just passing remarks. Khavur's dancing around, moving to hover above the escape hatch while simultaneously almost asking the question that seemed to be on the whole Forge's mind. But, there was a wise backward step—in the conversational sense. Unimportant detail. A lurching forward (a near misstep, Alpha couldn't have possibly missed it) and a drawing away. The seesaw squeaking on an abandoned playground. Squirming on the unforgiving, hot blacktop was Orthoclase-Alpha—again, in that metaphysical sense, since its physicality was clinging to noncommittal posture (sans a lifting head, snout tipping back to level). Beneath the heat of the sun, a dying star, threatening already to swallow them whole. A simple question, uttered between the cage that was Khavur's fingers and claws and teeth: "How long ago did you return?" A simple, easy question. Should be a breeze, a breath passed out of its lips; and yet, it had to think. Had to try and fail to find an exact number and name to place on blurred-together days and featureless hours. Reason had to give way to illogical estimation—not so much as an educated guess. @Khavur RE: you're a good shot, you're a good soldier - Khavur - Feb 12 2022 Monstruo y monstruo, yes, yes. Creatures of tendency, tendons, see; a proclivity towards... violence, chaos, and disruption which were all danger here supposedly but, Khavur wondered where the zoisite had inherited their impeccable shell from. Such pristine armor never shattered like glass, even after the spirit did and the beast came out. The Reaver wondered what else they had inherited, from which party. Khavur wondered, so dangerously close, as if it, too, had inherited something from its Master. Would the orthoclase feel it? The eyes — even the ones that no longer functioned? Even though the breath and the expression never changed, would the orthoclase be able to pick out the monster from the rest? Distinguish it? More than comprehend, understand it? If it could or could not, if it did or did not, would that not spill more and more? This is all too dramatic. It can't possibly mean this much. Khavur is just a pair of eyes. And Orthoclase-Alpha is just a... @Orthoclase-Alpha RE: you're a good shot, you're a good soldier - Orthoclase-Alpha - Feb 16 2022 "... I imagine your return was well-received by Master Vargas." Goosebumps swarmed along its neck. Traitorous quills bristled where the rest of its poorly-maintained composure did not falter. "The absence has made an impact." The reminder crept beneath its skin, nerves shot alight all over again. With a flash of burning magnesium, the lithographic impressions of its spawn on the backs of its retinas lit up. Blink, and Khavur might miss the shift of weight from forward to backward—top-heaviness substituting for planting itself more firmly on the ground despite the live-wire energy thrumming through its claws and starting a series of twitching spasms beneath its carapace. It might miss the way Orthoclase-Alpha's jaw tightened, how its (poorly imitated) impassive gaze narrowed. How it seemed to chew on the words and just barely stomach them on the way down the gullet. The Forge had carried on without it, but its lack of presence had left a particular hole; one that it was unwilling—no, no, incapable of filling. Alpha no longer fit perfectly into the cutout, or... did the cutout no longer fit it? Vargas asked for a machine, he asked for a heart. He'd received neither. It was not the sun's tone, physicality. (It was nothing but... casual. Neither dithering nor lingering.) It was the sun's light, its raw presence close enough to boil the flesh beneath its chitin. It was the hybrid's futile attempt to dispel the illusion of either head's overly hot breath fanning over its hide, teeth and claws raking up and down along old fault lines, prying and looking for an opening to squirm and dig into. However at-peace Khavur seemed, it was not enough to keep words from twisting and turning inside of Orthoclase-Alpha's own head. Its throat seized tight. No spark of curiosity guided it to see how Khavur would react to such a plain answer (nor in response to whatever encouragement the Valkhound had received from Vargas). It was spoken in carefully-modulated monotone—a stiff facsimile of casual with a modicum of nerves threaded through the undertone. Knuckles bled green through beige hide, talons curling. Regret sank heavy into its gut as it was struck by an abrupt realization of how vague such an answer was. The unsatisfying lack of detail and the contrary thought of what exactly its job should be. Overseer, perpendicular to things delegated to merely hunting and sitting by a door, by a stray chrysalis. Overseer, falsely charged with the responsibility of facilitating its own social interactions and having the will to commit more than a shred of its attention without overthinking in the way that it did now. It struggled to prepare flashcards for the follow-up it expected. All the while, it stared past Khavur like the living statue it was wont to become. Merely wavering, a candle in the wind. One strong breath, and... well... One can guess how that goes. @Khavur RE: you're a good shot, you're a good soldier - Khavur - Feb 17 2022 Coward. The Overseer was a coward. There was no sheepishness, no sheep in the Chaos Forge. The only lamb it had ever produced had since left them. The rest were all wolves, wolves in various clothes. Call 'Overseer Orthoclase-Alpha' the emperor of having none. All their eyes could see it. Would anyone ever say anything? Khavur decided it had no choice but to continue its prodding and poking. Continue until it found the orthoclase it remembered again — the aloof, the commanding, the one who fought back. The one who knew how to kill a rat and looked like it had eaten plenty. Khavur had never been quite so attached to that orthoclase, as far as it knew. Khavur would seek without sentimentality, gorge without famishment, dig in its talons without mercy, until it could finally be certain of the truth. Certain that the eyes lodged deep within that distinctive bone structure really reflected anyone, or if they were simply vestiges of a magical gift that had scarcely ever been used. Certain of Khavur's prior suspicions, which it had kept from everyone as best it could — especially this mason's own adamantine spawn. Khavur had to know. Because maybe Orthoclase-Alpha had never been a hole in its heart, but it had been a hole in something. In this ecosystem — the one Khavur would give life and limb to nurture. Khavur felt like it already had its answer, but— You hate it when that happens, but don't give it all away just yet. @Orthoclase-Alpha RE: you're a good shot, you're a good soldier - Orthoclase-Alpha - Feb 25 2022 It would be better than being so cowed by interest. Khavur asked its questions, speaking before its hand even raised to signal for attention. Formulating a one-sided debate of work and purpose, it was impassive and impartial; the judge before a court, gavel in one hand and the scales judging one's truth in another. Orthoclase-Alpha knew nothing about the age-old adage of Innocent until proven guilty nor its belated addendum of beyond reasonable doubt. Even if it had ever stood in a court of law, if Orthoclase-Alpha had any desire to come to the stand before just accepting its sentence, handcuffed and snout turned downward… it may not have had one. Well— all right, it did, but… Orthoclase-Alpha knew that it wanted only for one thing: Purpose. Not one that it'd found for itself, but whatever it was that was needed, whatever mold it needed to fit. It wanted, nor needed anything else—it had convinced itself of that much. Now, if it could only convince others of that and banish the memories of its own creations— A hoarse grunt. Putrescent eyes twisted away from where they'd been snared by an uninteresting spot on the wall behind Khavur, fixing on a spined shoulder and its motley mix of colors. Always-shifting, always changing, always wrong and yet always malleable. That was what this beast was. There was something dangerous about it. Its spine coiled tight. @Khavur RE: you're a good shot, you're a good soldier - Khavur - Feb 25 2022 There would be no hole to hide from the sunlight eyes in this time. Crawl and coil, deepest insect — coil in on yourself tighter and tighter like the never-ending serpent. Khavur would find you, and you would know its blinding light once more; for there is no place on this world for a man to stand where he might escape the light of stars. The mannerisms did not evade Khavur's notice. It almost seemed silly, imagining that they could. Whether the Overseer knew of its own lack of plating seemed a less important question than whether or not it could even fix its conscious or unconscious mistakes. Hoarse voice, lean frame, an unfocused gaze... hiding the blood that seeped from the cracks in that armor would be impossible to achieve without using the very blood spilt. In other words, any question of There was a beast rattling beneath Khavur's every scale, haunting and infernal, its wicked soul the color of the darkest plume of fire — it craved the blood of its enemy. There was a songbird fluttering in Khavur's gut, twisting its vocal chords, singing sweetly of salvation — it craved the air of its companion. Khavur wished, with heart and soul, flesh and bone, that it could bear all these elements, every aspect, to its Overseer. To bear tooth and talon, to tear limb from limb, even if there was no response, just to feel the extraordinary pain of Orthoclase-Alpha's being alive again. And why shouldn't that be possible? After all, this orthoclase was not what it once was; it would be too weak to retaliate. But alas, this orthoclase was not what it once was; it would be too frightened to stay. Once again, the world was imploding — a supernova cascade — while the two monuments of nature stood undaunted, leaving no evidence of the impact in either body beyond each one's uneasy breath. @Orthoclase-Alpha RE: you're a good shot, you're a good soldier - Orthoclase-Alpha - Feb 25 2022 Oh, there's the taste of acid in its mouth again—acrid and foul acid dredged from the bottomless pits of fell dread and despair, milked from the fangs of the vipers that'd been slowly dissolving what was left of its sense of self and care to know. A whispering voice came to in the backs of its eardrums, breath brushing over fine fibers so sweetly; it spurned any desire to get away, demanding that instead it get Khavur away from it. Just one haggard swipe of the cornered wild animal, a snarling hiss, a wolf's snapping at the hand that prods. Wool instead stuffed itself in its mouth, cloven hooves and a bleating lamb padding the teeth that should have snarled and bit and spat out the venom coalescing in them. Alpha remembered what it'd told the labradorite, remembered how it'd nearly gone to truly ruin the zoisite, remembered the way the third regarded it with merely a tired glance before moving on, without a single word's further acknowledgment. It remembered the flexing of its shoulders as it held them all out at arm's reach, as it threw them even further. As it dumped an entire can's worth of gasoline on the bridge and barely found the heart to flick the match clutched in its fingertips. (It was better that way, it was better that way, it didn't want to talk to them, they didn't want to talk to it—) To Khavur, there was just a split second of frustration: a fleeting narrowing of eyes, clenching of jaws, stilling of quills. Then, quick as it'd come, all that bled out, sublimating to infuriatingly passive silence that clouded even the orthoclase's own thoughts. Sometimes, it found itself wondering over what it might have chosen, what it might have not chosen—not for long. Not for long, lest the migraine eating away at its retinas grow too strong and make it black out, forget what it meant to see something as edible, start to wonder just how much space it took up in the grand scheme of things. The lattermost, at least, it knew the answer to: Too muc— Khavur was greeted by silence and dodgy, unsteady looks from a body neither submitting or exuding confidence. @Khavur |