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[002: On Fares and Fairness] - Waffles - May 24 2024
There is a certain unease that comes with something that looks living, should be living, and yet is not. The frozen caricature at the entrance stares down at him like he has done something oh so terrible, like he has caused one great upheaval of everything moral and decent, and the look is so familiar—so ingrained—that it is then that the pangolin knows for certain that it is not the first. It is a face only a living thing could make. Too many curves and edges. Too living, even in its unlife. “...Oh, dear. How do, old boy?” It stares on, unblinking. “Goodness, me. What a ghastly thing you are.” He hopes it was not rude. It was not rude coming out of the mouth, really. It was only an observation. And what a broad observation to make, because whatever this thing was, or is, proves to be quite unlike anything the young gembound has ever seen before. It was carved from the earth itself. That is a feat surely reserved for the living—taking such a thing and changing it irreparably. There was nothing one could do about such a sight but admire it, and admire it the pangolin did. Chipped stone and all, the thing stood so proudly atop its plinth that the bowl in its claws almost seemed like a— Oh, what could he say for it? A treasure? But the pangolin did not know what treasure truly meant, either. -–Like a treasure. Because it feels right. Because the meaning did not matter, not really. All that mattered was the protection, the stationary care. He did not know what having treasure felt like, but surely it felt like this. Holding it outward. Here, it said. Here it is. Now, it is your turn. Your turn. But he did not have much to give, except— Except perhaps the last vestiges of its organic form. What better gift to give than a piece of you, repurposed? An unbeating heart in the cup of its hands. Giving back. Letting by. A respect. Now that was good manners. Well! A fare is in order, he thinks! A fare for— A fare for travel. A fare for respect, whatever it may be. Thank you, he says back to it. Thank you for your pity. “All is fare in love and war. That is what the people say, is it not? Heard it before, have you?.” He sniffles. “Ah, bother.” And so, gently taking a rock in his tail, he brings it up and throws. It almost bounces off the smooth casing, yet another taunt, but it rattles around until it settles between one of its claws and the held urn. “Delightful. Delightful! May I pass?” It may be a tad boorish, but he says it as he walks away, tail dragging. “You have had your treasure! And my fare! My fair fare, say. Mind how you go, stranger!” Like the tunnel, it does not respond, and for once the pangolin is not too offended at the gesture. He would not be too amenable himself if he was made of stone. No way to relieve itches. No way to talk. And that notion is scary enough to garner the most earnest of his condolences. And he does offer those condolences, his rickety voice echoing, but when the flat stone leads into towering engravings, that is when they run out. Mosaics–beautiful, overlapping abstractions—are inscribed into every surface above him, and yes, these must be the stars he saw beneath his eyelids. They do exist! And they were horrifying. Artificial. Made. The pangolin pales at this—they were made! Recondite shapes and colours fan out to form the quills and feathers and paws and crests and tails of beasts he cannot even hope to name, and sitting atop a perch of sweeping bone and sinew sits the most empyrean thing, a creature of wings and cloven hooves and those eyes---three uncanny abysses staring back—and there is a majesty there even then, in the simplicity, for the pangolin cannot imagine what pressure it would be, three eyes and nowhere to put them. And there were more—the twisting, many-legged forms of insectoid, bovine monstrosities with flaring nostrils and frightened eyes. The scratched and smudged things of scales and lumpy, spine-stretched skins. In every direction and then some sat beings that stitched every biological impossibility together and spat it back out. Nestled in crooks and crannies were things so simple and things so needlessly convoluted. Against the ragged canvas of Monoceros’ tunnel laid the good and bad and left and right. And encircling were the culminations, named and unnamed and horribly secretive and graciously honest. Above him, everything that has ever existed, and yet, should not have. Above him sits the firsts. It is, likely, the scariest and yet most fascinating thing the pangolin has ever seen, and by the time he has made it a mere thirty feet into the tunnel, he is already waving himself about and flinching at how the whipping wind, from such places, sounds like their growls and brays and yelps. Because he may have manners, but he by no means a courageous thing. And so there the poor, meek, unseemly little pangolin sits, choking on his own tremors. There the poor, weak, unassuming, scared little pangolin stays. For the firsts could not always be the firsts. And he has come along. He has come along. RE: [002: Carolina Moon] - Anala - May 24 2024 ![]() ![]() She wasn't sure why she was here, honestly. She'd spent a little too much time in the dampness of Pisces, and maybe she just needed some nice, dry warmth for a day before she was off to god knows where. She didn't know why she travelled to half the caves she travelled too, in truth. Polaris would just be better, considering how much more energized it made her feel when she was training. ![]() RE: [002: Carolina Moon] - Waffles - May 24 2024
He did not know how long he sits there, mumbling obscenities and twitching quivering claws, but it was apparently long enough to hallucinate. Another yipping came from the entrance, that horrible sound. For a moment he sits there rooted, which was a joke so long as he hated the earth, the dust—the dirtiness of it all. Voices are not voices here. Sometimes, it sounds like him. And other times, it sounds motherly. Oh, not motherly, no. But a sibling to it. Only so motherly as the chrysalis was, his chrysalis, and he has reason to believe that his chrysalis does not trouble itself in things like care or love, as his neck is still awfully sore, and that, he imagines, is not what love feels like to anybody. Another rumbling passes by, the undeniable mimicry of footsteps, and he lets it pass him. He has stopped flinching at the winds. And so! A nice discovery to make, that he is no longer cowardly and unseemly and— [”Hello? Are you alright?”] That was not the wind. The wind comes from the other way. The wind— The wind does not have paws. ”Oh, crumbs!” The pangolin startles enough that he rolls onto his tail, sending him backwards and up against the back of a great stag-headed body of fins, and then he is sent tumbling forward again, because it truly is monstrous but then he is closer to the Not-Wind and Not-Wind seems awfully big and those eyes surely wanted him between the spears of her own claws and oh, his were so blunt and round, they were practically hooves! In lieu of an articulate reply, his teeth chatter in new tremors, and it is most embarrassing— [“I am no mother, little one, but please—you should really get up! Have you eaten?!”] Even the wind was not so loud and abrasive. Bad manners, old boy. ”I am no mother, either!” The pangolin says, falsely delighted. “We share it! We share that! Do you like sharing?” He knows that she is talking, saying something to him, but when his mouth runs, he fails to catch it. He has never been particularly fast, you see. “Do you share the tunnel? Is this your tunnel? I paid the fare at the entrance, at the—the statue, yes, I paid the statue with a part of it back. All’s fare in—” He sniffles, and his body is quite displeased with this ramble of his. He was quite displeased with it, too. “...That is what they say.” He shuffles backward, covering the lower half of his body with his plated tail, and for what could not be said for the illustrations could very well be said for the real thing. Such blinding fear, and for so much. Why must he be born in fear? He was not the first. “That is what they say, you know. That is what they say.” The—Not Wind—tilts her head and he yelps, burying his face into his tail that was not sharp enough, not at all! “Oh, I have just gotten here! I have already had the most terrible tumble! I have already been knocked and shoved and pushed, I do not want to be—” He sticks his snout up. “Whatever you do! You have a rock stuck in your chest and I rather hate rocks! Rocks and the dust that comes with them!” RE: [002: On Fares and Fairness] - Anala - May 25 2024 ![]() ![]() She watched the pangolin tumble, twice, and she skidded to a stop. Her muttering ceased as they moved, reassuring her that they at least weren't ill. Scared, maybe, but not sick! It was only natural to be anxious as a young gembound. It kept you safe. ![]() RE: [002: On Fares and Fairness] - Waffles - May 25 2024
Of course she would laugh! Of course, because the wind has not laughed at him enough! Settling on her legs did not bring much more comfort, but it did bring an assurance that if he did not move, neither would she. So he freezes completely. “So many rules! Oh, I just got here! Fare or no fare, what is the difference?” He sneezes roughly. “I am already so tired. It was quiet before I woke up. Now there is wind and not-wind and all sorts of crumby sounds. And the sounds aren’t even the ones I want to hear!” A paw slaps the ground, massively put-out. “I have tried speaking to them! I have tried speaking to the statues and the rocks and most everything else and they would not talk to me! And I say that is very rude!” But she is speaking. “Are there rules to that, too? What can and can’t speak? Why is it so confusing? I just got here!” The pangolin—the poor, naive pangolin—did not yet realise he, too, had a gemstone, and looks rightfully horrified by the prospect. He nearly touches it, but draws his hand back like it will burn. “Oh, no! Think of the dust! I don’t much care for being given life if I don’t stop sneezing! Dust is not good for the nose, they say!” He scoots further back at the gesture—too close to a strike, that was. “And magic—magic, what does magic have to do with me? Magic is not meant for me! The pressure…” And—and she said—not Not-Wind said— [“I am Anala.”] Like it was so simple! [“What’s yours?”] Like it was so easy! Her answering, [“...Have you decided yet?”] is as much of a taunt as it was a question! “Of course I’ve decided! Who do you take me for?! A—a simpleton?! No!” He dares a glance toward the etchings, back to the—the Anala---and then back to his unwholesome tail and blunt claws and tittering voice and— What was his name?! Anala—Anala meant— Anala had to mean something! That is the point of the name, is it not? To label yourself something. Here I am, it says. This is what you’re getting yourself into. What did he have? Why would you name yourself something so early? Is it early? Is he early? “My name is—” He did not do much! He did not have many features! And he could not take Anala because that is already taken, and it is rude to copy someone else! He is a pangolin—the same way you intrinsically know blood is blood, but naming a pangolin Pangolin seems awfully redundant. He is a boy—for lack of a better term—but naming a boy Boy is, also, quite redundant. So what does he do? He talks. That is about it. That is all. Curtains closed, folks! Mouthing off is about the only thing he feels he can do, and do right. It is something he knows like how birds know flight. It is not a taught thing. It is there, resting, hibernating. It is a need and a want and—pish posh. “My—my name is—” Talk. Harp on, old boy! Rant and rave! Lose that thread! Waffle on! So it must be— “Waffle!” He does not realise he is yelling until he cowers under his own voice, blinking. “--s! Waffles! I am Waffles! That’s my name!” Did that feel right? Oh, not as much as the ’Dizzy Tunnel’ felt like the ’Dizzy Tunnel’. But it would have to work. Yes, it must. “Yes,” He says again, more to himself. “Yes. I am Waffles. With an ‘S’ sound. Do you hear that? 'Sss!' Not one ‘S’ more, and not one ‘S’ less. Waffles. And you are not the wind! You are Anala!" He---Waffles---sniffs, displeased. "...That is correct, isn't it? Of course it is! I know my---I know my wits! I do!" The wind feels much less like a voice now. Perhaps he was just lonesome. "...Don't you?" @Anala RE: [002: On Fares and Fairness] - Anala - May 25 2024 ![]() ![]() What an amusing little creature, barely alive and yet so full of ideas about the world already. She wondered if she would have been the same, had she not slept in chrysalis for so long after her hatching. ![]() RE: [002: On Fares and Fairness] - Waffles - May 26 2024
A lovely name. Anala—for it was only Anala—thought he had chosen a lovely name. That is a consolidation. Waffles did not know what he would do if he did not pick a suitable name! It feels like the worst kind of mistake to make. And then there is talk and talk of gems, which spins him around again—though the notion that they didn’t produce dust was indeed no small relief. That much, he thinks, is owed. For what the pangolin knew of fairness—and what fairness was, which was a tasteful little—he thinks there should be an equal berth. Judiciousness should always be honoured! That much is deserved, I say! “I was going to take mine out! Now that you’ve mentioned such a thing, I can feel it on my head! It’s pressing down all horribly, it is! I wish it was on my chest, instead! But I suppose it lets me talk. I suppose for that I should thank it. But I won’t be happy, I won’t! I won’t be happy about it at all!” He is halfway into a rant about the pickle about insulting the gem, for the gem was you, and self-love is important for a boy such as I, when Anala stands and then he’s back into his ball. For all his credit, he doesn’t completely hide, and instead peeks his face out from beneath his tail, because for all he was scared, sometimes fear is quite driving, and quite bothersome. And she was backing up. She sets a paw upon the wood and it burns, burns bright and then black, and, no—-while the paintings did have the mystique of what may be called a star, this had the brightness. It was beautiful, and mortifying, and alive when she willed it. And that was— “Dreadful,” He mutters, and then he catches himself. “Not your—whatever you did! It was not dreadful! It's just—it is quite brutish. And—” He sneezes. “What a smell.” A claw retracts out of his body to scratch at his face, itching that residue away. Maybe that was it, isn’t it? It was loud in its existence and quite crude but bright and—that was why she named herself Anala! That is why it means fiery! She is fiery! Oh, how embarrassing. He called himself Waffles because he talks a lot. But that is right, too, isn’t it? He does indeed. “Did you know?” His voice is small, awfully meek. But he is meek, too. Perhaps he should have been named Meek, instead. “Did you know you would be fiery when you named yourself?” @Anala RE: [002: On Fares and Fairness] - Anala - May 28 2024 ![]() ![]() Goodness the pangolin liked to think, and talk, and make her think! All the stuff she thought she just knew dawned on this hatchling like the idea of a wildfire in Eridanus! Would she had been so nervous as a pup if not for falling back into her chrysalis for so many cycles? She had missed out on so much. ![]() RE: [002: On Fares and Fairness] - Waffles - May 29 2024
“What an awful thing that sounds like, to die. Does it happen often? I imagine fairly so, if these troublesome stones don’t let up in their unshapely manners. Manners are important, I say. Manners are becoming!” And then he’s off in a flurry again. “I say you must always be cordial. Being impolite is quite the same as dying, if you speak of it so lowly. It cannot be good, no, it cannot be. Evil as anything. Like the paintings and fire and the wind and most everything else in this cave. These caves, you say. There are multiple, oh, crumbs…” Waffles is only barely listening when she says her nonsense about the naming, and he has it in him to be only slightly and motfifyingly scandalised by the notion that he had time to choose! He could have thought of such a better name in that time! What dreadful circumstances! He could have thought of a nicer name. Like Buttercup. The pangolin did not yet know what a buttercup was, nor that they existed, but it came to him and sounded much too nice not to be a word. He could have thought of a scarier name. Could have taken his… shortcomings—which were more like blessings, depending on who you asked, and if you asked him, perhaps it was the best blessing one could have!---and drench them in the cold terror of a name, corner any poor fellow and announce his likeness from every rockface and cliff’s edge. Like Large and Terrorising Shadow Destroyer: Dream Merchant! Oh, perhaps that is a bit too much. Too much of a mouthful. Though it does not pass him that his name was given on the pretences of having a mouthful. At all times. About all manner of things. And then he realises that he his mouth has wandered, and though it is relieving for him, having a release of sorts, it was not good for the wolf, as she always looks awfully confused whenever he goes on his little ramblings. On his wafflings, rather, and then he feels smart again. [“--crystallised not long after I woke up.”] “I don’t know much of anything when it comes to that word. Crystallising. Quite the term. Is it technical? Is it the opposite? How do you know? There are so many rules. And I must follow them you see—manners are important.” The bumbling pangolin sniffs. “That is alright, though, I think.” He scoots a little closer, just the barest mark, to make himself seem bigger and therefore make his words seem… better? More agreeable? No matter. He is only so much of himself—he does not entirely know what he does until he does it. “I was in a crystal before. Right cruel thing, it was. Spat me out and sent me flying. Oh, I had never been so frightened before—though I don’t remember fear, or much of anything, existing before that, mind—-but I loved it. You have to, I reckon. You love it because you cannot love much else. I thought I would stay in there forever, even before I knew I could think. I did not know wind existed before I felt it. I did not know colour existed before I saw it. The crystal is home but it is a very small home. Not enough room, no. I miss it, even if I hate how properly it sent me---even if I know I would have to outgrow it. I would love a nap,” He blinks. Names are difficult. “...Anala. I would quite like a nap. I would quite like to nap like I had napped before I knew what napping was. It was warm. I remember that. It is home, but home cannot always be home, because if that were the case, I—that is to say, we—would not be here. You would still be in there. I would still be in there. And what a fine pickle that would be.” He straightens. “I mean to say, it is alright. Perhaps you just needed more sleep. I say, I didn’t think I was ready when I came. But my tail knows me better than my mind sometimes does. It knows how to grab and move and swing when my mind does not know how. It is a trade, see. It is a trade. Home knows you better than you think. Perhaps it knew you needed it when you didn’t. Otherwise, it would be cruel, and I’m sure only mine is so cruel. Perhaps home only wanted to love you a little longer." Waffles huffs, and true to his word, a loose tail bats at the ground. Talking does him some good—it relaxes him. “Oh, but I’m afraid my name is quite right. I should not change it. Perhaps it makes sense that I am called Waffles. Look at what I’m doing!” There is a sound, a nervous tittering, that sounds only so much of a laugh as a scream sounds like laughter. “And what pressure it is, Anala. Names, and such. Change. I have not changed at all, not that I remember. But I already hold some proper reservations about it, I do! I would loathe to see my scales chip. Oh, what would become of me then?” The flat of a paw digs four soft craters into the small bed of gravel beneath him. “I do not like pain, nor what it looks like. Perhaps that is why I am so jealous of your crystal. Safety. It is not fair, I don’t think, that we wake up and are so scared all the time. Very unproductive! Very impolite, I say. I say it is just about the worst use of fear, really. So many other things to do with it. So many other places to take it." He blinks two beady eyes, and they meet hers. “You can even yell it from rockfaces and cliffs-edge, I hear.” @Anala RE: [002: On Fares and Fairness] - Anala - May 29 2024 ![]() ![]() "Not often." She offered some comfort before Waffles began to waffle again. It was a nice word, a fun word; waffle. They also liked to say crumbs a lot. Oh, crumbs, to be specific. She couldn't wipe the smile off her face if she tried. ![]() |