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LICK YOUR WOUNDS - Esther - Apr 09 2025

Takes place a couple of days after Absolution?

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Hallucination



Esther awakens to dark, shimmering crystals. Their body still hurts - but everything's scabbed over at this point. They give themselves a once-over making sure nothing is sweltering in infection. Thankfully, nothing's gotten that bad yet. With a sigh, their head slaps back to the ground. They're still tired.

Esther knows healing takes time, and preventing infection even more. Still they can't help but think that fight was, well, useless. Esther couldn't even give Helion what it'd asked for - death. Despite the little thing inside demanding for it, making esther want it, they still could not do it. Perhaps for punishment? Even then, thinking that gives Esther pause. Punishment does not feel like the right word.

Maybe Helion will try to give themselves another chance and work through it - of course the only thing they can do is wait until the chaos beast reawakens. The entirety of that situation feels like smog in Esther's brain, like it didn't really happen. There's no way they'd send their own groupmate to chrysalis - or make them beg for death.

I will not send someone in my own group to death.

They think it, but really how true is that? How far would someone have to push before they go feral and just end it? Is some magic usage really all it takes for Esther to go that far?

Still, that shadow circles them. It has a stupid grin on its face as it watches Esther. Its steps leave no sound against the rocky floor below them, and yet it moves round and round. Esther's eyes trail it as it taunts them, alike how it did during the battle. Toothy grin full on display.

They think about sinking their teeth into its neck, dragging it behind the crystal and ending it there.

Instead, thoughts about what Helion said float to their mind. Why did I choose this?

Esther isn't so sure anymore.

Perhaps they should report the battle to Vargas, but Esther doesn't know if they want to do that either. Should Helion be reported for being right? At least somewhat right. Chaos isn't controllable. Esther was stupid for thinking that way. Still, it was not Esther's fault that it chose to attack. There is a lot to think about.

They lay on their side as the shadow continues circling.




RE: LICK YOUR WOUNDS - Vargas - Apr 11 2025



- THE LEVIATHAN -


If Vargas superimposed the circling shadow, it was not deliberate; but he did circle Esther upon his approach, moving from their feet up to their head to peer down at them.

His voice, though, would crack through any false assumption as to a ghostly or hallucinatory nature, at least for the Leviathan himself: a booming, yet quieted, rumble. "Are you injured?"

A foolish question, he noted to himself, as six eyes traveled over the healing wounds. Those eyes narrowed, and he found his rigid face struggling to contort into a grimace, however faint. "How were you injured?" he corrected himself at once.

No "are you all right;" they'd tell him that themselves. But he wanted some form of report, at least to rule out the possibility of an attack in the nest itself.

Not that he wasn't concerned for Esther's well-being, but... Vargas had never been particularly good at the "warm and caring empathy" thing.


@Esther


RE: LICK YOUR WOUNDS - Esther - Apr 11 2025


Despite Vargas' size, Esther does not pay any mind to him at first. As he circles, he steps into the shadow and it dissipates. Esther then looks up at the Master, and then gets on their feet. They hold back a wince as injured skin has to bend, but does it anyway. Laying in the dirt probably won't do them any good.

"V-Ruby-One and I had a disagreement." They say.

It started as one anyway. Esther did also start the engagement, technically - but the spell backfired so there was a chance for Helion to back off. Or for Esther, too - but they were indeed on fire at the time. Disagreement is probably an understatement too.

"I chrysalized it so it won't be awake again for a while." Esther admits. "We got into an argument about our magic and my spell backfired so it decided it would be a good idea to fight, i guess."

They're rambling, but the blistering under a lot of their skin is very distracting. Sleeping hurts, even. Not abnormal for the maned wolf, but still.

"I'll be fine, I think. Might go find someone to speed up the healing." They probably look like a guilty dog. It does take two to tango, and Esther could've stopped the fight before it got so bad. They never intend to hurt anyone - but maybe Helion is the same. Or maybe not. It seemed to dig too far into itself and others both.


@Vargas


RE: LICK YOUR WOUNDS - Vargas - Apr 12 2025



- THE LEVIATHAN -


Concern slid away to disapproval. He considered his words, if only for a moment, before speaking; those words came slowly, because he was still considering them as he spoke.

"I am... disappointed to hear that. Generally, the punishment for harming a Forge member outside of a designated fight is to mirror the damage, from one to the other." He paused, eyeing Esther up and down, somewhat irritated. "So--was the damage relatively equal..?"

Esther already seemed... harmed. And they were one of the few who'd returned to the Forge of their own accord. He hated to punish them in a way that'd drive them off--he wouldn't have hesitated if he knew them to be problematic. But he knew that V-Ruby-One was problematic. The thing was made of a hot temper, despite his attempts to... well, temper that temper. He'd hoped that the Onyx would've been enough of a stabilizing force, their teamwork enough of a learning experience as the corrupted Ruby matured.

It hadn't been enough, it seemed. Vargas sighed and looked away. "I must take some responsibility for failing to curb its lack of self-control. I imagine Master Tenzin would have a look at your wounds, in Pisces, if you wish it." Failing that, the cold waters might provide some soothing for their burns, but he didn't mention that; it implied Tenzin might not be present, which would be undoubtedly disappointing for someone seeking healing there.

He glanced back down to Esther. Truth be told, Vargas wanted to know who had really been at fault, there--neither? Both? Ruby? The idea that Esther had escalated felt quite unlikely to him. Though he didn't use it often, Vargas tried to send out a tendril of magic to connect to the maned wolf's mind. "Tell me honestly, without trying to take on more responsibility than you owe--did one or both of you lose control? Whose fault was this?" He could feel his link slithering into place, and unless Esther became aware or otherwise stopped it, he hoped to get a sense of the honest answer--whatever Esther's words might be.

Of course, the other emotions he might get might be enlightening, too.


@Esther


RE: LICK YOUR WOUNDS - Esther - Apr 14 2025


Esther starts hypothetically sweating when Vargas asks about the damage. At first it was equal sure.... Not so much after they squished Helion into the rocks underneath them. They can't imagine the pain Helion felt, but maybe it was numb at that point. It asked for death. Esther did not grant death to it.

"Um. ...No. It started equal but I kind of um. Squished it." In hindsight they really should have just ran away when the fire transferred to Helion. The flames would have distracted it enough for Esther to bolt. "If you feel like I need that punishment, i'll understand if you send me to chrysalis."

Esther came back knowing how the groups are and how their punishments work. They also believe the punishment is fair, even if Helion technically started it. Esther did try to attack first, but. "Ah - I might go see Tenzin then. Thank you." If they don't get sent to chrysalis anyway. If Vargas chose to they would heal faster regardless.

"V-Ruby-One tried to convince me that my magic was a bad choice - with magic. We had a disagreement about it and we ended up fighting. If i'm honest I guess it started it, but I could've just left too." Esther really did not need to go that far. "I sent it to chrysalis with one of my spells after the fight got worse." After both of them caught themselves on fire.

Everything happened in such a quick blur that Esther isn't so sure what happened in the middle really. They remember catching on fire and later Helion doing the same. They remember crashing their claws into its head to send it into chrysalis faster. Maybe Corruption really is just that hard to control. They want to go back to sleep.


@Vargas


RE: LICK YOUR WOUNDS - Vargas - Apr 15 2025



- THE LEVIATHAN -

Vargas did not try to hide his sigh. It was heavy and it was irritated, and the shake of his head likewise so. But neither seemed directed at Esther, exactly. Just... the situation in general.

Chaos was what it was. That was the difficulty of trying to run a Nest of the stuff with any efficiency. Yes, you could simply churn out a hundred thousand war Hounds, and toss them to the powers that be with zero training. But there was still the problem of testing designs; one did not exactly get reports back from the surface as to which monsters had survived a little longer. And from there--the procurement and storage of food, prey, creatures to hunt in their testing... It meant that a hundred or more beasts infused with what was essentially magical madness made for a very difficult-to-control problem.

Ironic, that Oil was precisely what made this Nest very much a not well-oiled machine.

"I will speak to V-Ruby-One before I make any decisions on the matter," he answered indifferently. Then--a problem occurred to him, and he paused. "Where did this happen?" There was a sudden intensity to his tone. He tried to remember when Ruby-One had last been at the Black Spire-... Draconua, so far as he knew, was asleep and was the only one he could trouble to create a Chaos source. He'd assumed that this had happened in Draco, but it couldn't have; he'd have sensed such a battle. Had they been hunting? In Pegasus, most likely-? If this had happened away from-...

...Could it die?


@Esther


RE: LICK YOUR WOUNDS - Esther - Apr 19 2025


If Esther could sweat, they'd be making a pool on the floor at this point. It almost feels as if Vargas is a parent trying to decide the right punishment for their child who just fought someone in class. Except the classmate is fundamentally dead for half a cycle and could die-

Oh shit, V-Ruby-One could die anyway.

Esther hadn't considered that, nor do they know what actually happens when someone chrysalizes away from a source of corruption. The idea of being behind the death of a forge member sends a shiver down their spine - would Vargas have to kill them in return?

They straighten up when Vargas asks his question. "Andromeda, Master Vargas."

It's not often Esther uses his name at all - but the sudden intensity of his wording has them worried.


@Vargas


RE: LICK YOUR WOUNDS - Vargas - Apr 20 2025



- THE LEVIATHAN -

Andromeda. Very well; he'd need to head there and try to find someone who could place a corruption source. And if he couldn't-... well, that could be catastrophic.

But there was no rush now, at least. His gaze shifted back down to Esther, six eyes unblinking.

Vargas had become... milder, since taking up a position as Master. The knowledge had surprised him, the first time he'd realized it. Masters brooked no disrespect; they were brutal and ultimately powerful. A mere Overseer, as Vargas had once been, was nothing but their enforcer. Yet... his enforcing had been sort of "beat it up or kill it" in style, and that--that wasn't really an option here. All that to say: once upon a time he might've slapped Esther into a chrysalis himself. Right now, he was calculating, instead.

What was the best possible outcome, here--and how did he arrive there?

The problem was, he didn't know. He was still relatively new to this, still fumbling in the dark, and after a beat he growled. It might've seemed angry. It was just a little frustrated, a huff, in truth. "Tell me; what do you think of this situation? Were you in my stead: what would you do?" He studied Esther, then.

Everything was a test, of course. He'd been clear about that often enough, but this was blatant. He wasn't hiding that this was a test--nor did he have any shame about confronting someone burnt and battered and demanding this of them.

Maybe it said something of Esther, that Vargas thought that they could take it.

But he did wish to hear what they would say.


@Esther


RE: LICK YOUR WOUNDS - Esther - Apr 23 2025

This is a test.

Esther knows it is, they can feel Vargas' expectant gaze on them. What would Esther do if they had the choice here? Every being is selfish - Esther is no different. They do not wish to die - but what if V-Ruby-One dies? The only path would be to bring the hammer down in retaliation. There would be no way to come back from it. Esther would feel too guilty - they wouldn't be able to handle it.

I Don't Know. They want to say. A stupid response, they would fail this test if they replied that way. A leader such as Vargas is not allowed to Not Know. Esther isn't sure they know Vargas well enough to make this kind of decision - He'd been kind to them in the past. They've already broken one rule of the Forge before. Does that count in this situation? Still - Rue has been a good member of the Forge. Nothing but good has come from Esther's breaking of the rules.

They don't think it will have anything against them. Still, Esther is a selfish being. No one wishes to be punished. Would they punish someone for a first time conflict like this? No, no they wouldn't.

The silence stretches on for way too long before they decide what to say. "I don't think I would punish someone for a first offence." They admit. "...But I also think letting V-Ruby-One decide is fair."

The hair on the back of their neck is raised in stress, but they do think what they said is right. "As long as what it wants is equivalent, it would be fair."

Life isn't fair, but Esther thinks situations like this can be. If Helion wishes they get chrysalized in retaliation, Esther will take it. If Helion dies, Esther will take that punishment too. Vargas blinks in and out of existence as they watch him, the Void taking over parts of his giant body as they await his response. They've never had to think about this before. It's all new.

it also was technically self defense. "But I also think V-Ruby-One's other behavior should be taken into consideration. It was picking a fight first." Still, two wrongs don't make a right. Esther doesn't think they can completely come to a decision here.


@Vargas


RE: LICK YOUR WOUNDS - Vargas - Apr 26 2025



- THE LEVIATHAN -

Vargas watched, eerily silent as he waited and listened. It was as if he were a frozen predator, preparing to pounce on passing prey. But the thing was... it wasn't intentional. He honestly was just giving Esther his full attention, paying close attention not only to their words, but to their body language, their tone. And he hadn't forgotten that they were injured.

They managed a response. They had clearly considered their words, and the situation, despite the injuries. That was--good. That was a tick in their favor. And they were relatively fair, in their assessment. In fact, that was the usual Forge punishment for such a thing: an eye for an eye, fairly literally.

"Noted," he responded in a rumble. He didn't praise, or condemn. His thoughts, however, were warmer. He was disappointed that Esther had gone so low as to fight and lose control, certainly; but here and now? They were attentive, respectful, and reasonable, despite what must have been serious pain. The ex-Overseer in him took note of these things, and what they meant. The Master in him turned that over in his mind, and saw potential.

But it was not potential that could be fully realized so long as Esther was getting into scraps with others.

After a moment's thought, Vargas elaborated, some. "In the future, do not lose control. Act as though you are setting an example for others in the Forge. In some sense, you are. In the meantime, I will seek out Ruby-One and ask its opinion, as well. It has always had trouble in controlling its urges." Corruption's fault, undoubtedly, yet not entirely. The rest of them managed, aside from perhaps Draconua, who Vargas didn't exactly consider of the Forge anyway.

Disciplining Draconua was well beyond him. He could fight, and if he cheesed it he could inflict enough damage that she'd back down a little. He could use the powers of a Master if he had to, but that would never garner her respect.

At least Ruby-One is no Draconua. I will always have that bit of relief to fall back on, he decided. He looked at Esther, again. "Either seek out aid or rest here. Do you need anything?" he asked. A strange question, perhaps, from the Leviathan and Master, but he asked it nonetheless. If there was something they needed for recovery, and could not go and obtain themselves while injured, he would look into it. Perhaps.


@Esther