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my mind was a fog, my heart became a bomb - Leon - Sep 22 2015 Whatever Amaria's fate had been, Leon couldn't shake it from his mind. He hadn't a chance to see Cancer after the massive battle in Polaris. In fact, he wasn't even sure the black leopard had even been there. Leon briefly caught a glimpse of one shooting lightning bolts at the dragon, and another obsidian feline encased in armor, but neither he had immediately identified as being Cancer. The bear had to assume that the armored cat could have been him, considering his penchant for cloaking himself, but really he didn't know. And that nagged his mind too. If Cancer had been there, had he seen the chrysalis? Leon had to shake the thought away. He didn't even know for sure if anything had happened to Amaria, and maybe that was why his paws had taken him back to Orion. His mind was buzzing with thoughts, worries and fears of what may have happened, testing scenarios, yet he didn't even know for sure. He had to soothe his curiosity. He had to know... and hope and pray that she had been hiding here in Orion with Cancer all this time. As he entered the starry room, he lifted his nose and sought out the familiar smell of the clouded leopard, hoping to catch it - but nothing. That doesn't mean anything. His lips tightened and he lowered his head, quickening his pace. He had no idea where to start looking for Cancer. At this point, he felt like he was an intruder, an unwelcome houseguest with a dark secret he was destined to reveal. Maybe Cancer would find him before long. The anger that burned in his heart for what Amaria had told him had, for now, subsided; even if Leon had been furious before that she had some kind of a relationship with him, Leon was given time to view it from a different perspective. It was with guilt and shame at his anger that he tried to give it a chance. Fear that she was gone - he had to forgive himself, and he had to accept that it was her life, her decisions. But first, he needed to find out what happened. The bear finally made his way to the throne, spotting it atop the raised platform. Uncertain, he lingered before the platform and looked around. "Cancer?" The bear called out, reclining to his haunches. @Cancer RE: my mind was a fog, my heart became a bomb - Cancer - Sep 22 2015
OOC: Cancer looks like total shit. His sides are carved up from where the armor sliced him, his face is all scratched up (most of it won't scar) and he's still obviously sore from bruises and broken ribs. His tail isn't noticeable yet, but if Leon approaches, it would be- with blackened blood-clotted mess a few inches short of where it would've ended last time. :P Bone and all still dead there. Enjoy the gorey mess that is Cancer. @Leon RE: my mind was a fog, my heart became a bomb - Leon - Sep 23 2015 Something shifted beyond what he could see. He could just barely hear it, and then he spotted movement. The bear raised his head and stepped closer to the platform, craning his neck to see. The black leopard ascended a crystal wall erected near the wall, for what reason he didn't know - it hadn't been here at his last visit, not that he could remember. Leon looked over the feline, taking note of his deep injuries. Evidence of some great battle. The cat spoke with no greeting, pointing out both of their presences at Polaris during the fight against Raheerah. Leon nodded slowly, confirming his words. "Yes. We took her to Bevy." He answered, neglecting to mention Makyna's presence as well. He hadn't come to talk about the battle though. The bear loosed a small sigh and took a few steps closer, sitting aside the throne as he looked over to Cancer on his gem wall. "Looks like you took quite a beating." Leon added, looking the cat up and down again. There was nothing behind his words - it was a simple observation, and he hesitated to ask the other Gembound what he had come to ask for in the first place. It was with dread that he would ask, fearful of the answer. She would be gone, or he would know of their argument. Either way Leon was to blame. His shoulders sank a little and he sighed inwardly a second time. "Have you... seen Amaria?" The bear didn't supplement his question with anything. Whatever he said would incriminate him against the leopard, so he left it at that. @Cancer RE: my mind was a fog, my heart became a bomb - Cancer - Sep 23 2015
@Leon RE: my mind was a fog, my heart became a bomb - Leon - Sep 23 2015 The bear watched silently as the other descended the wall, making his way forward. And, to his chagrin, reported that Amaria had not been there. His heart slowly sank. It hadn't been long since he talked to her - the battle was still fresh in his mind, a few days ago, and then she had found him in the tunnel... what, a day before that? Two days? It felt like a blur now, it felt like a million years ago. He went on, and Leon had half a mind to shut it out, turn and leave him there, lacking the heart to explain any further why he had asked. Cancer delivered his skepticism and then made some attempt to reassure him, or maybe to smother Leon's protectiveness over the clouded leopard. Leon pursed his lips, but the tension he suffered never withered. No, and panic, too, started to rise. But it was too late. He was already here, he was already talking to Cancer. This was his fault. "She didn't." Leon answered after a few seconds of hesitation. Orange eyes lingered on the feline, then dropped to the ground and he struggled to find the words he wanted to say. It didn't matter how he said it, Cancer would be mad - this he knew and fully well expected. The blame was his own and no one else's. "I..." He started, brows furrowing before averting his gaze again to the side. "She came to me in the tunnel outside of Polaris." Leon's words were slow, but it wasn't because they were metered or calculated. He was afraid of what he was going to have to say, and of what the leopard would do. "We had an argument, over... you. Last I saw, she ran down the tunnel. I didn't see her after that." Leon still couldn't look the leopard in the eyes. His own gaze lingered off to the side, then back down at his paws, his ears twisting back. "During the battle I saw something. I didn't want to believe it - that's why I came here, asking, but..." The bear paused again. His mind was whirring and he wanted to look up at Cancer, to see the feline's expression, see if he knew maybe where this was going - see if maybe Cancer had seen it too. Finally he flicked his eyes back up to Cancer, frowning. "It looked like... her." There was no other way to put it. It was her stone. It had to be - he'd never seen another like hers. Whole, flawlessly grown into the side of the wall. It had to be her. @Cancer RE: my mind was a fog, my heart became a bomb - Cancer - Sep 24 2015
@Leon RE: my mind was a fog, my heart became a bomb - Leon - Sep 26 2015 He dreaded what may come of his admission, and yet the black leopard didn't display aggression for his mistake - Leon had admitted outright that they had an argument over Cancer, but the feline looked only grim and then demanded to be taken there. Leon's eyes widened - it meant having to delve back into Polaris, it meant having to prove that he was right. I don't want to be right. He wanted this to just be some accident. Maybe Amaria had taken some time for herself, escaped while she could before the fight. He wouldn't fault her for it. Maybe she had just gone to think - but it was just wistful thinking. He knew that as soon as they found the turquoise chrysalis, they would know that it was her. There was no doubt about that. Leon watched the leopard, monitoring his movements closely and taking note of how he looked back - he followed his gaze there, along the crystal walls to something protected beyond them. It hadn't taken long for Leon to make the connection. He'd been so fed with anger that he hadn't even heard her when she said it, but Makyna told him after. They were going to be an aunt and uncle - Amaria was having children. It didn't take a rocket scientist to figure out with who. Orange eyes snapped back to Cancer, and he felt that storm of indecision rising in him again. He couldn't place a finger on why. He was angry that the black feline had stolen Amaria from him, jealous that Amaria saw no wrong in him while Leon was blamed for wanting to spend time with his beloved - but it all looped back to being Leon's fault, and feeling ashamed because, truthfully, it was. "She told me I was going to be an uncle." He said distantly, forgetting the leopard's request for now. He just had to know. He wanted to know. Why? @Cancer RE: my mind was a fog, my heart became a bomb - Cancer - Oct 12 2015
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