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You Made a CAT - Giggle - May 29 2020 She sent Omen off to find him, first. Trundling around Canis yelling for her son wasn't her idea of a day well-spent, and the bird could find him quickly enough. Plus, she was working on a new little trick. She drank, quiet, at the stagnant pools; she had a short meal, all in preparation. She was well-rested and wanted no interruptions, for this. And all the while she kept her mind on Omen, who swept to and fro, canvassing Canis in search of Aure. When she found him--when the single, red eye at last fixed upon him--Giggle mentally thanked her and then focused on her magicka. Let's see if this works, then, she thought, then sent it out in a surge. It was... harder than she'd expected. It worked, but not well, and she had to cut the message a tad short. "Aure. When you have time, can you meet me at my den?" She'd wanted to tell him what it was about, but there was no chance of that now; the link slithered shut. With a sigh she turned away, and made herself busy cleaning up a little--preparing before he got here. Assuming, that was, that he wasn't busy with something else, for now.
@Aure RE: You Made a CAT - Auré - May 31 2020 A post-meeting Bone King was presently busying himself as many would after so much information acquisition: pacing rather aimlessly. The monotonous movement helped to process, even as his brain skipped over many details like an well-loved CD. It had ultimately reached a somewhat satisfactory conclusion, questions answered and promises made to not - upend the caves into a pure factory. Aure didn't worry much about that, but the uncertainties of the future stood tall, looming. @Giggle RE: You Made a CAT - Giggle - May 31 2020 She pushed up as she heard him coming, heard his chirp--as Omen's sight showed him drawing near--and offered her snout to his beak at his affectionate greeting when he landed and plodded over. "Aure," she grunted, in greeting. Then she got right down to it, turning and pacing to sit on the other side of one of the little stagnant pools. "A long time ago, the Bonebound was family. Warm, loving, trusting. When I brought Eythan here, when I made you, there wasn't really a Bonebound anymore; and the Bonebound of today is different. A lot of them are the same--but there's some coldness in it, too, something I don't like." There was no emotion in it, just fact, but she lowered herself to her haunches and studied her son with dark eyes as she spoke. For a moment, she paused, and cast her mind out through the fungus--ensuring there were no hidden eavesdroppers, no one to overhear or to tattle off to others. The magic was weak, but she found nothing; she resolved to lower her voice, just in case, and also send Omen circling to keep watch. As the black bird again took flight, Giggle continued. "I know that you made Damask on impulse. I know the Bonebound isn't mine, and I'm not about to throw around ultimatums, to get that out of the way. But there's something wrong with her, Aure." A pause, as she regarded him. He might know; he might not. She didn't know, but that's why she was here. "I've been lax in not asking you sooner. I wish I'd have met her sooner, or whatever it was might've been nipped in the bud. If a kid's raised by you--you're loving, you're warm, supportive--I see no reason she should be as terrified and self-doubting as she is. I've seen into her mind, Aure, and she's a fucking mess." Flatly, grimly stated. "I don't know what happened to make her that way. I don't know why she only eats birds, even though our whole fucking family is birds--that bothers me. I don't know why she has no real warmth, why she wants to be 'the best' and hates herself and fears everyone else. So: we need to talk." Giggle wasn't sure how much of this would be revelation to her son, and how much he already knew; that's why they were here, to get on even footing. "I'd like her to fit in, and not be a miserable wreck. I tried offering her structure, I tried training her, I tried offering kindness. But she's still a nervous mess; she just hides it better. Every time I've tried talking to her about it--she shuts down. She loves you--don't get me wrong--but the way she's living is no way to live, and I can't get through to her. I thought maybe she'd get better with time, and support, but she's only gotten worse. I want to know what you know about it. Do you know why she's this way? Maybe we can help her together, somehow." She paused, where she sat, watching him; her voice had been quiet, so as not to be overheard, but the solemnity could not be mistaken.
@Aure RE: You Made a CAT - Auré - Jun 01 2020 Brief greetings, then she was getting to brass tacks. @Giggle RE: You Made a CAT - Giggle - Jun 01 2020 Giggle perked a brow, watching Aure as she did. "Well, I wasn't gonna go that far," she answered bluntly, to his statement that Damask wasn't some sort of assassin. "It's her happiness I'm worried about. That's my job--no, that's not the right word." Giggle paused, mulling it over for a moment. "It's my responsibility. To make sure our people aren't trying to cope with anything they can't." Another pause--a long one--as she eyed her son. She shook her head, then, a little sadly, and turned away to flop along the rock, huffing dog-like before thinking aloud. "Her chrysalis, huh? And she saw the death? Why haven't you talked to her about it? If you'd built up a half-decent base with her, and I assume you have, it shouldn't be hard?" Giggle eyed Aure sidelong. "And why didn't you tell me any of this before?" she added. "We could've talked it over and tried to work something out." As to her child's question, she thought it over, looking away. "I saw fear for her, didn't I? But I said it'd work out. Here's the thing, Aure," she added, looking back to him just a little sharply--and it wasn't a mother-sharpness, it wasn't authoritative but almost angry. "Things don't work out on their own. We're a family and we should have all been helping her with this all along. She's a tricky one, though, I'll admit; it bothers her to talk about things, so she avoids them. Is it wrong to push her-?" Giggle considered, looking away for a moment. And she took that time, again, to check that they weren't being watched, Omen still circling overhead. A moment of focus told her they were alone, well and truly; she extended her senses farther out to see. Then she lay back, and closed her eyes, pulling her mind from the caves deep into herself. "I faced trauma," she murmured, and it didn't have the air of a painful admission so much as again, thinking aloud. "Let's see. I retreated, too. Sort of. I didn't know what the hell was real or not, though. And everything scared me. Little things would set me off." She mulled this over, for a moment. So far as she was concerned, Damask was a victim; but more than that, Giggle knew what it was like to live in fear. That was, at least in part, the reason for her worry. She took the well-being of the Bonebound members as her own responsibility, that much was true, but fear resonated with her. Fear was something she knew intimately. Fear was the enemy. She shifted in place. "The thing is, I benefitted from having family close. Warmth. Though--I knew 'em from before. Maybe if they were strangers, pushed on me, I'd have been made worse?" Eyes remained closed as she tried to puzzle through this, brow knitting. "I always had Canis to come back to. Maybe-..." The hyena grimaced with all this effort, and opened her eyes, and looked to Aure. Her voice was still kept relatively quiet, despite the fact Giggle knew they were safe, as she peered to him. "Does she have her own den, Aure? A safe spot of her own, some kind of sanctuary she can retreat to? That might be a good first step. Let her pick out a spot, if she hasn't got one, help her decorate it if she wants you to, and tell her that if she goes in there no one can bother her. It can be her... 'time out.' But once she's got that, we should introduce her to new things. And address the death, I think. That might be something I can best handle, with a little..." and here, she nodded off toward the bone pile, "mystical mumbo-jumbo. Some magic and some bones, some visions of what I knew of your father. Maybe it's time the Bonebound had a coming-of-age ritual," she added thoughtfully. "Some mushrooms to help their mind along, and a guided journey back to our roots, to see all of us that came before. Get an idea of their place in us. That might help her, though I want to ask the bones." She looked to her son with a slight grimace, aware now that she'd rambled some--half thinking aloud, half hopping between topics. But she was a practical sort, and the dual-pronged plan seemed decently wise to her. But it was Aure's child, too, not just a member of the Bonebound; and Giggle was treading cautiously. She didn't know how Aure might react. She didn't fear ruining their relationship--that was solid, and she knew he'd not take this as an attack (at least, she hoped... little did she know, really). But it was a fairly pointed topic, brought up out of nowhere, and there was hardly any precedent for how to handle it. A king and his Seer, and a son and his mother; a family member, a daughter, a granddaughter, and problems. She only hoped it could be solved smoothly, or at least, in the way of trauma, addressed and helped smoothly. "What do you think?" she asked him, pulled into a sphinxlike pose across the rock.
@Aure RE: You Made a CAT - Auré - Jun 01 2020 Aure deflated. Knowing that she'd looked in and continued to felt like a... breach of trust, even if it was with the best of intentions. He pushed it aside, though - it wasn't something to worry about right in the moment, because... it was his daughter they both fretted over. Just in varying ways. That was all. @Giggle RE: You Made a CAT - Giggle - Jun 01 2020 M for some language Giggle's expression knotted further and further, rather than relaxing, with Aure's words. So much of this... was wrong, and surprise contorted into disbelief, and that in turn into near-anger. Her eye twitched. The hyena took a breath, and closed both eyes, for a moment. Breathe, Giggs. First things first, she told herself, and took another slow breath. When she looked at Aure, it was half sidelong, a disbelieving stare. "What do you mean, when she found out that you'd hidden who her life-giver was?" Giggle asked, very slowly. No one had told her this. And her mind raced; if it were true, it explained Damask's reaction back when first they'd met. Her coldness toward her father. And it meant there was even more the child had hidden from her. Giggle bristled at the thought, and struggled against her own dislike--she's not a cat, she's your grandchild. She's not an asshole. She has a personality in there somewhere, behind all that coldness and all that fear, you just have to work to help hr bring it out. There's-... she lied to me. He lied to her. What the hell? If Aure assumed that Damask had told Giggle about the whole mess, he was wrong. The hybrid kid had hidden it as neatly as she'd done everything else. And the hyena had never pried deeply in her mind--it had always been a skim, a brief eavesdrop, a check on Damask's condition. Exhale. She closed her eyes again, sending her senses out once more. I don't blame you. You'd better fucking not, she thought grimly. Her gaze snapped back to Aure. "Why don't you want to push her? Why doesn't she want to be 'pushed?' Why is talking to your daughter 'pushing' her?" She was struggling--and failing--to understand this. Her own relationships with family had always been close, warm; Damasks's coldness, her mask, was at best irritating and at worst, alienating. Why was she like that-? Surely a bad hatching couldn't have done it; a Gembound wasn't really awake until they fully emerged anyway. And so many had that, and none had wound up like this. Was it the vision of Aza'zel's fall that had done it, then..? Death and betrayal, viewed by the youngest in the family? ...Yeah, that might do it, she admitted to herself. And then she snapped at her son, at least verbally. "So you were hiding shit from her, and she hid shit from me, and now she's hiding shit from you, and up until right this second you were both hiding shit from me. Family's family, Aure, this isn't how it's meant to be!" she cried, and there was a distraught twist to her tone, a desperation to make him understand. She'd raised him with honesty, openness. What the hell had happened-? Giggle grimaced and shook her head, sharply. "And no. As for a den, I meant here. In Canis. If she wants it somewhere else, fine, but I don't mean someplace secret. I mean someplace everyone knows about, but respects as her space. Boundaries that she and others can understand. She needs that, I think." The hyena grumbled, then; "At least, I thought she did." Now? With all this sudden new information? She wasn't so damn sure. "What do you mean she ran off to Orion 'when the thing happened?' When what happened?" -Did he mean the vision of the cairn? Did--"Do you mean the bones?! -Aure, she ran to ORION after seeing it, and you didn't discuss it with her?!" What a fucking mess.
@Aure RE: You Made a CAT - Auré - Jun 01 2020 "What do you mean, when she found out that you'd hidden who her life-giver was?" @Giggle RE: You Made a CAT - Giggle - Jun 01 2020 As fast as her expression had hardened and gone grim, it softened again, realization and grief flitting across it, followed closely by compassion. "Oh, Aure," she sighed, and paced over impulsively, to press her skull against him. She sighed again, and leaned, if he allowed it; and then she spoke, sadly. "You aren't hurting me," she started with, and then paused, surprised he even thought that. Sure, she was a little hurt now, but in general-? Was that what he thought? "But, if you ever don't know what you're doing, just ask-! I've raised enough of you kids by now," she added, her tone one of gentle humor. She flopped back onto her haunches and, in a wry echo of a similar conversation she'd had with Damask, she spoke again. "Nobody knows what we're doing otherwise, Aure. Nobody starts off with a guidebook." (Guidebooks were new cave knowledge, and she enjoyed mentioning reading and writing-) "We don't start off with someone teaching us how to do this shit. I had to guess at what I did, too. She's not a bad kid, Aure, and you're not a bad Gembound, son, or king." Another pause, another breath. "I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings. I didn't mean to. But this is what family is for, we--need to talk to one another, Aure. You don't need to get 'better,' anyway. That makes it sound like you think you're not enough--you're enough, you're more than enough. You're my son, you haven't done anything wrong." A pause, as she tried--hard--not to blame Damask for this. It's not her fault. Definitely not--not hers either. She's a victim in this, victim of her family's ignorance, of bad luck. Right-... Giggle took a breath, and looked to Aure. They could handle this; but first she needed a moment--and she had to give him one, too.
@Aure RE: You Made a CAT - Auré - Jun 01 2020 Aure welcomed and pressed into the embrace, muttering softly, @Giggle |