Yep hello hey its me i still live

So the last you guys probably heard was that i had a cool new job?? Like 2 months ago?? Well, long story short is that job totally fell through and i was left jobless because i left my current job at the hardware store to work at this new job and then i didn't have a new job so i was a big pile of butts. Like, huge sad butts. Things got really intense for me for a bit IRL. I know its hardly an excuse, but thats part of the reason why i didn't really make an effort to come around. Another reason is that there were a bunch of things re: Origin that was getting me down and being a huge source of stress. Some things still make me sad.

BUT.........

I have an actual new job, a new new job that didn't bail last minute. It's a good job. I work at a customs brokerage providing administrative support, clearing vehicle exports, but MOST IMPORTANTLY... i'm their new graphic/web design wizard!! They literally pay me to handle their online presence (including social media) which is super cool. And also, i have my own desk. And i get paid so much money.

The downside is that it does take up a lot of time. Working from 8:30-5 means that most of my day is spent at work, some of it commuting, and the last bit relaxing at home. By the time i get home, im deadly tired. So weekdays are kind of hit and miss for me. That means most of my free time is on the weekends, HOWEVER, yall know that my SO works nights so the only time i get to see him is during the weekends. Weekends are also when i see my family, go to the cabin, hang out with people etc. That means i have even less free time.

BUT!!!!!!!!!

Working this new job has made me happier. Whatever wounds caused by unemployment and drama are beginning to heal, and tbh I really miss yall. Its really inspiring to see people sticking around on Origin even though I'm gone, and when I made Origin, I really wanted to end the cycle of me getting overwhelmed and bailing on my own sites. So thats why I wanna make an effort to come back. Its not going to be all at once - you wont suddenly start to see me every day again posting like crazy. But I am gonna try to be on skype more, and be in the cbox. Try not to spook me with negativity, because I know myself and I know i'm prone to running away if someone so even frowns my way. I know, super hypocritical after all my preaching about how yall can come to me if theres drama. It totally exhausted me. Anyways,,,

Yeah. On the weekends I think I'll try to do... something. Like organize things. Or post. Or something. I dont know???? But I do want to be around again. Just dont expect it to be a thing suddenly!

yey!!!! welcome back maddos!

wb madi :3c

Hooray!

Definitely very happy that you love your new job :). And especially take your time doing what you need to do. Don't worry about us ^^. We'll be juuuuust fine <3

<3 yall !!!