watching over the twins was exhausting. i didn't know if such an investment really was for me, but i couldn't afford to be selfish now. i was too conscientious to even allow such thoughts of abandoning my post to mull around in my mind. i'd not only be abandoning my post, but i'd be abandoning cancer and his wishes. and worse, probably our father son relationship. such thoughts ran though my mind, and i couldn't help but feel a little saddened by it all. rounded ears swiveled in reverse, as a frown overtook my features. tufted tassel gave a few thoughtful flicks as jaded lenses observed orion below from the tower's top. i sat, posture regal as ever, with a concerned countenance.
i should really go back down the steps, to be closer to the growing gems. but i needed a small break. so why couldn't i sleep next to them? why couldn't i have a break closer to them? i was already beginning to fail, my own moral dropping. i should be better. i need to be better for cancer. i heaved a heavy sigh, rising once again and descending down the steps. my steps were haphazard, as was my train of thought, as i reluctantly began the trek to return to them. the gems that could quite possibly replace me. but they needed protection, it's not like they meant any of this. they hadn't been conceived with plotting minds, no. they were as innocent as the rock next to me. i grumbled, heaving yet another sigh as i then stopped for a moment, kneeling to get a cool, slow drink from a shallow puddle of water. taking my sweet time.
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salmon tongue began to lap up a few sips of the small puddle, before the sight of another came into view. i didn't react instantly, the only indication were the swivel of rounded ears and the raise of jaded lenses. i observed the canine creature for some time, before i realized i recognized her. she was the skittish creature when the short meeting of the small black and white bear occurred. slowly, i raised my head, gave a soft grin.
"hello again,"
words were a soft hum, an inviting tone. i didn't want to scare her off, so each syllable was spoken with precision, sincerity. i wondered what had happened to her for her to not even speak. could she? her mannerisms were rather off, even now. and what was that she had in her mouth? i wouldn't ask yet, i didn't want her to think i was going to snatch it from her. instead, i remained crouched where she'd found me, tufted tassel remained as still as possible so she wouldn't think i was planning to pounce. i'd wait for her, either to come or to run away. either or, i just wanted to figure this creature out. she was rather strange - broken, maybe? i waited patiently, with no signs of fraying.
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She was ever skittish, and it almost coaxed a laugh from me. But I stifled it, unwilling to run her off with mockery or anything else, really. The piece of whatever it was she kept tossing about was extremely important to her, that much was discernible. And I wondered why, why on earth was that thing what was she was so attached to. I decided to shrug it off, surely it wasn't that important that I knew. I just realized I shouldn't touch or, or try to. Or the critter might never look my way again.
I still remained in my crouched position, comfortable and calm - when I remembered that the twins were still momentarily unattended. My head turned, looking back in their direction and about Orion to make sure that nothing else was about. After my moment of surveying, my attention returned to the rather feral beast.
"Can you speak?"
I asked her, hoping she could at least understand me. Even if she couldn't speak, maybe she could comprehend? If not, I'd have to speak with aura and energy, which wouldn't be entirely impossible but quite difficult.
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and yet she didn't answer me. this was peculiar to say the least, as i'd never met another gembound who couldn't actually speak in return. even if the speech was broken and imperfect, they could still get across the gist. but this one simply never spoke, and i was beginning to think she'd never actually been taught, and it didn't come naturally. or, she could be incredibly shy, i wasn't certain. either way, patience remained, and i watched as she consumed the item she'd brought with her.
i hummed softly, in low baritones as i wondered what else i could possibly say or do to make her realize i wasn't going to hurt her. she didn't quite understand words, so i'd have to find other means of communication. ah, i know, i'll share food! if i shared food with her, maybe she'd see that i wasn't all that terrible. slowly, i rose from my crouched position - careful to make every movement slow and steady. i then took a look around for any cave rats about, and thought i heard a scuttle or two over in the corner. glacially, i moved toward them, reassuming my crouching position yet allowed my body fluid movement as i meandered slowly toward the corner. a rat came into view, and it spotted me as well. i froze, glaring at it for a moment, before lunging and attempting to snatch it up. i was able to grab it by the tip of it's tail, where it whirled around and tried to snap at me. another paw came slamming down upon the creature, and i grasped it between my jowls. carrying the now dying morsel, i erected my posture, looking back at the feral dog as i then slowly began to approach her with rat in jaws. i wondered if she'd take off, and didn't want to risk it. so when i closed the gap just a little bit, i gave the rat a hard squeeze - ultimately killing it - and tossed it toward the critter. i then sat, watching with a calmed aura and a tentative attitude.
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i smiled as the creature came for it, and took it, then continued to eat it. but when she snatched it, and did her little spazztastic reaction, i couldn't help but laugh. i quickly stifled it, as i didn't want to make her feel mocked or made fun of. none the less, i was happy she accepted my offer, but wondered if maybe there was more i could do. she still didn't seem to trust me at all, in any sense. have i given her reason to? if the offering and sharing of food didn't convey my message, something else surely would. i looked around a moment, eyeing our surroundings before shoulders thrust to the side in a fluid motion. i fell to the floor with an intentional roll, laying upon my back as eyes looked upon the creature - her upside down as i showed my belly. paws hung in the air, as i then proceeded to adopt a playful aura. my back slithered about, paws flinging about in the air, before laying still once more, still upon my back with my belly up.
if this wouldn't
implore the dog to come closer, or invest some type of trust in me, then i'd be at a total loss. frustrated only due to the fact i couldn't actually help the lone gembound. for i'd never met someone as feral as she, or as distant as she was. it was disheartening and enlightening all at the same time, wanting to help her as well as be her friend - but earning it in such a way i'd never had to before. she was teaching me more then she'd ever know, and i'd forever be grateful to the wild dog.
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