The Good and The Bad
Jan 19 2016, 04:29 AM
WE MUST HAVE CHEWED OUR FINGERNAILS A THOUSAND TIMES OVER WAITING FOR THE SCENT OF YOU, THE BREATH OF YOU, A MOMENT—A RIPPLE SENT SPIRALING THROUGH TIME. AND WE CALLED OUT FOR YOU, ALWAYS, IN A SENSUAL MOVEMENT, A PREDATOR GAZE—A MALE AND DARKLY JUDGMENTAL, PIOUS, DESPERATE, SEARCHING—REACHING GRIMACE MADE OF WIDE, WHITE EYES PUSHED VIOLENT THROUGH THE STONE CEILING AND ITS FACELESS, NAMELESS, SPIRAL-SHAPED AND BLACK, SNARLING SKY.
HE DOES NOT KNOW THE NAME FOR STAR AND THE SHADOW OF IT GRACES HIS MEMORIES, LIKE AN UNATTAINABLE DREAM.
THE MOMENT ITS ECHO ENTERS HIS BRAIN—IT LEAVES.
IT'S A GASP OF CAVE STONE ON ANCIENT EARTH-RUBBLE THAT PAINTS HIS PRESENCE, THE VAGUE PASSING OF FEET IN PLACES THAT WHISPER WITH COLD, GNAWING WIND AND IRREDEEMABLE HEAT. THE DRYNESS PARCHES HIM, AND STRIPS THE VOICE IN HIS THROAT TO ASH ON GRAVEL, AND WITH THE SOUND OF A MAN CHOKING ON A ROOMFUL OF BLOOD AND CIGARETTES, HE CURLS INTO A TIGHT, BALL-SHAPED SHADOW AT THE EDGE OF A HOLE.
IT IS VAST, AND SWALLOWS UP HIS STARE, AND LEAVES BEHIND A REEKING CHILL THAT SEPARATES THE HAIRS ON HIS HACKLES WITH A MENACING, INVISIBLE, AND CRAWLING GLARE. HE HAS TWIN BEATS FOR EYES CUT INTO STEEL, A PANTING MOUTH UPTURNED AND PRIED APART WITH LOW, LABORED RASPS. HIS FEET TEMPT THE GORGE'S PALE AND INSISTENT—SMILING—LIP, WHILE HIS GAZE SEARCHES OUT THEIR STONE CEILING . . .
. . . SEARCHES, AS IF WAITING—WEREN'T WE ALL? WAITING? FOR THAT UNATTAINABLE DREAM?
THE MEMORY OF A HEAVEN WE WOULD NEVER, EVER SEE?
THE PATTERN OF A SKY,
A WORLD,
A DREAM.