Dec 22 2016, 05:40 PM
The journey to Cetus didn’t often take this long. In fact, it was usually fast and easy, and Ghanyarah had memorized the tunnel paths between rooms that connected to Cetus like the back of his foot. He was resolved to move slower and more carefully this time around due to the precious cargo nestled on his back. He didn’t know how she was still hanging on, and to be honest he wasn’t completely certain that she was still even attached to him, but he hadn’t seen or felt her fall off, so he trusted she was still there.
Ghanyarah made his way back into the swampy room, intending on depositing his payload - the tiny, neonatal bat - at his tree. He had taken a piece of her broken chrysalis too. He intended it as no more than a keepsake, knowing that circumstances could very well separate them as quickly as they had been brought together. The chrysalis would remind him. It wasn’t anything like the real, living thing, but Ghanyarah found that having any kind of reminder was better than having nothing at all. It was how he felt whenever he remembered Gracie, and Netil, and saw Netil’s shattered chrysalis still cradled in the roots of his tree, wishing that he had something of Gracie’s too. He had missed his chance to get a keepsake, but Ghanyarah wouldn’t make that mistake again.
He never believed himself to be sentimental. Emotions were for the weak, and the smarter, and the ones who wanted more in life than just to survive. Ghanyarah had placed himself higher than them because he didn’t waste time with such trivial pursuits. Well, that used to be the case. When he no longer had everything he used to, when he realized he had taken it all for granted, those wants came seeping in. Like a silent, wicked shadow, the pain of loss nipped at his heart and his memories vaulted back to images of when he was with other Gembounds. He found himself missing. But Ghanyarah, ever efficient, sought to quell those feelings as soon as they rose. He knew he couldn’t fight them, so he would manage them the best he could.
First, find new Gembounds to fill the void. Then find some kind of reassurance if he lost them too.
This little bat would be the first in what he was sure to be a long series of trials engineered to ensure he was no longer plagued by those painful, cold clouds of loneliness. He wanted to say he was confident in his plans, but in truth, he wasn’t. She hadn’t said anything yet. She hadn’t assured him that she would be his friend too. He just had to trust that she would assume the role like he intended her to.
When he arrived at his tree, with the faces of his friends staring emptily and crudely back at him, Ghanyarah tucked the labradorite shard in among the remaining slivers of morganite that once nursed his lost and only son, Netil. Then he slid onto his back and defied all former caution, attempting to twist his head around and sneak a peek at the little bat. It would be okay if she fell. The ground here was soft with its layers of loam and leaf litter.
@Lituus