yeah, that look of his said.
you did okay. an inkling of a smile plucked at damask's features, even as her pulse wobbled and skipped between her ribs — the voices around her fading into a palpitating ache of anxiety. auré was reflecting her approach, she realized: a step up to the audience; the shape of fisher's name on his mouth, calling him closer; a deep, congratulating bow.
thoughtful of him. pride spoke last, announcing the tie, no doubt wrapping it up with a word for the group. was that a simmer she saw in azrael's face?
wait, don't worry, he's leaving, he's leaving. as were the others, one by one. she gave the white stag a vigorous nod of agreement as he addressed his compatriots. in moments' time, he was gone, mercurius all but brushing along his side. the accipiter threw another glance at auré, narrow through a knowing smirk.
a little something to lighten the mood. "something there, you think? i can see it." ... no, aagh, not funny, not the time, not the place. she bit her lip, shifted back into neutral as they presided over the last of the crowd. her gaze lingered on the dragon's silhouette, growing smaller in flight. first place, and yet svartis had been so
humble — !
oh, he really deserved that win. maybe she'd ... catch him, sometime, sidle her way into a conversation ...
what? or she would just — study up on that invisibility spell herself.
naturally, kalama had to burst in for an attention-seeking reprisal. this time, the bird of prey didn't flinch. somehow, though, she was still ... having a hard time ... hearing. when her father edged in front of her, damask intercepted the move, squinting sharply at him:
not necessary. then, at kalama:
man, are you done yet? this tirade was shaping up to be shorter than the first, at least. she lifted her muzzle and flung it away, an unmistakable gesture to
give it a rest already —
... and, in so doing, caught sight of alpha, shambling into silent retreat. she shrank back, tracking them through the very corners of her vision. they hadn't said a word, they'd scarcely even
moved, and now they were just up and
leaving? why had they
been here? did it have anything to do with their busted-up
face? they had
recognized her, she
knew it. if only she could just
talk to them ...
damask's eyes flew back to her father, seconds out of synch as he broke through the sound of blood in her ears.
"it's pretty noisy up here." no, it isn't. kalama left. furthermore:
smile, fake. laugh, also fake. he sounds tense. in conclusion:
he is, once again, not doing so hot. "i'll be over there, if you want to come with." if? "of course." she shadowed every step, faithful, attentive ... but she couldn't quite help it. that niggling dread in the back of her head, the premature regret for something she still could've done but knew that she
wouldn't. she glanced over her shoulder, hoping against hope that the colossus would, too — not just once — not just twice. between auré and alpha, there almost wasn't
space to worry about the competition itself, the stress of judging it, of standing up there with the two finest — ... yeah,
almost was right.
a wisp blossomed into existence and danced around at auré's command.
self-soothing spell. damask shook her head, trying her damnedest to put those scars, those haggard quills, those
scars(!) out of her thoughts.
"ready to go?" "lead the way," she replied. a little lower here, more conspiratorial:
"you make a great judge, you know. excellent encouragement for the kids, very important note about sebastian. you should be proud. maybe, if you're feeling inspired, we could practice together once we get home?" she smiled tightly. it wasn't altogether lost on her — the irony of it, the reversal of roles. not a word of praise from
him, nothing but a smile and a nod, not a single indication that she had gone even an inch above and beyond. but he needed it; she didn't. damask would be absolutely fine. damask with the tiny voice. damask with the delicate looks. damask with no repute or significance. nausea swum in the pit of her stomach, dragging her into crash and comedown.
knock, knock! it's me, reality! i'm ba-♪-ack! so, kid ... did you miss me?