[Backdated to the 13th]

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pain ideation

self loathing

As soon as Aran could feel things again, his chrysalis was broken and the Barasingha was sent tumbling down out of it on shaky legs. He stood for a moment, legs shaking despite himself. He'd done it again. He got himself stuck in his chrysalis doing something stupid. When his legs were done acting a fool, the deer stood up straight, blinking his eyes to rub out anything that may be in them since they were blurry.

Except, well. Blinking didn't do anything and Aran couldn't see much of anything. Not even the vaguest shapes of things were visible to him - until his body forced itself to turn around that is. He could vaguely see the shape of his chrysalis, opened in the middle. But nothing would come out in detail. He couldn't see.

Well, that was a lie. He could see. Aran could see. Even if it didn't mean anything. Seeing things didn't mean anything when there was nothing for you to see. Only vague flashes of color from canis, vague shapes of things that would be around him. No detail. Something was wrong. Aran's eyes hadn't been messed with in that entire fight. Nothing about that fight should have effected his eyes like this. Not even his own spell hitting himself.

Once again he came back to the thought. Would it have been better to not wake up? Last time at least he could see. At least he could function last time. But now? There was nothing for him now. He had to see to use his magic - he had to see to get around places. All of this because a stupid alligator deciding him bumping into it was good enough for a fight. Aran almost wanted to go find out where he went - where the hell the alligator ran off to. To see if he could win this time.

Except he knew he wouldn't win. There was no way he could if he had no way to even see his target.

And that, was terrifying.

Aran was a fool.

@Tahi-Shei

Tahi-shei had come from a training with Giggle, and had stopped by to check up on Aran's chrysalis. It had been here for a while now -- about a half cycle, and Tahi-shei still needed to apologize. Currently, he was dozing off nearby it, half-aware of his surroundings. Tahi hadn't seen the Collector since his meeting with him, and so the fear was beginning to taper off to some degree. Not much, but it was less pressing, and Tahi-shei was increasingly able to feel comfortable in Canis.

Then he heard the cracking of the stone, and his eyes snapped open. He struggled to his feet, and then moved forward once Aran was tumbling out. "Aran! I am so sorry," he said, placing his body next to Aran's to help support his shakiness. "It was foolish of me to ask someone else to do my dirty work, and look where it got you." He sounded a little choked up, but Tahi had had time to rehearse this little speech. "I'll be fixing my problems on my own from now on, I swear it. How are you feeling?"


@aran

Aran didn't notice Tahi was there until the smaller deer boomed out an apology. He didn't really see why the other deer would need to apologize - Aran had said he would help and he tried. Aran had gotten himself into that situation. The sudden words almost made him jump, too, but Aran could vaguely see Tahi's shape through his foggy eyes. They were glazed over, if Tahi noticed it would be pretty obvious that there was something wrong.

It's not like im dead or anything." He grunted out in reply to the apology and the mention of asking someone to do his dirty work. Honestly, if Tahi himself didn't want to get hurt having someone else do the killing for him was the best bet. Aran had agreed because he wanted to see the extent of his magic, and it seemed like he needed to work on it more.

"Fine." Came the answer to how he was feeling.

There certainly was no pain, but still, the sight thing was going to be an issue. The man wondered if there was any kind of magic that would at least fix it for a short time.

@Tahi-Shei